Why does this overcome me? I feel the need to abandon the PC and live my life. I think wasting time here isn't really getting me anywhere. The more time I spend on the box the less time I'm reading, making music, learning to read music faster, or getting my homework done. I feel like I have the same conversations with the same distant people. It doesn't get me anywhere other than create wants towards individuals that live so bloody far away.
I need to get a second job. I am having doubts I've made it to UCSC because I haven't heard back and its approaching the "last date you'll hear from us" date. If I don't make it -- Spain. I want to be fluent in Spanish by my 21st birthday. I don't know if that'll be possible. Its going to suck not having that birthday in the states but I figure at least there I'll be able to drink anyways! God I am not really a big drinker, I just want the right. Hell I want the right to smoke pot too, but that one isn't coming.
Fasting and smoking pot are a really bad idea. I was doing well, only drinking water and juice until 5pm when my mum wanted me to help her make quiche. I made a vegetarian quiche and I couldn't help but try some. Then by 6 o'clock I broke the fast. Whoops. I guess its good I at least made it through the school hours. That's all that counts anyways. I've saved my $ that could have been spent on some organic, prepackaged lunch. It gets really hard to not eat at school to save my money, but its not like my house is really close that I can go home for lunch time.
I'm going to the symphony tomorrow night. Violin concertos. That and lots of homework will keep me off the box.
I need to get a second job. I am having doubts I've made it to UCSC because I haven't heard back and its approaching the "last date you'll hear from us" date. If I don't make it -- Spain. I want to be fluent in Spanish by my 21st birthday. I don't know if that'll be possible. Its going to suck not having that birthday in the states but I figure at least there I'll be able to drink anyways! God I am not really a big drinker, I just want the right. Hell I want the right to smoke pot too, but that one isn't coming.
Fasting and smoking pot are a really bad idea. I was doing well, only drinking water and juice until 5pm when my mum wanted me to help her make quiche. I made a vegetarian quiche and I couldn't help but try some. Then by 6 o'clock I broke the fast. Whoops. I guess its good I at least made it through the school hours. That's all that counts anyways. I've saved my $ that could have been spent on some organic, prepackaged lunch. It gets really hard to not eat at school to save my money, but its not like my house is really close that I can go home for lunch time.
I'm going to the symphony tomorrow night. Violin concertos. That and lots of homework will keep me off the box.
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joy:
'tis a big fat markerpen tattoo *giggle*
'tis a big fat markerpen tattoo *giggle*
apexxx:
i dont think there is anything wrong communicating with people on the internet on a daily basis, as long as its in moderation. If you limit yourself you can still have time for everything else thats important. I know messengers are really bad at sucking away time, so i personally avoid them anymore and limit myself to myspace & SG - a couple of comments per day. If you still think its best to go cold turkey from the computer, then I wish you much success in everything you want to accomplish. 