gluttonforpain

So I don't know whats been wrong w/ me recently. Constantly flying off the handle and shit like that. I think the fact that everything keeps changing around me and, things are just chainging and we have to grow up, is gettin' me down. There has always been conflict and drama w/ our group, hands down, aint no doubt about it. But w/ the introduction to one new member, and people slippin away...it's driving all of us crazy. I'm taking it the hardest. I don't want to share ANYONE right now. I have snapped at a couple people recently for wanting to break away from the group and kick it w/ people that aren't in the "cirlce" and i'm sorry for doing that. Too much keeps piling up at once, and since I can't control it, my emotions are getting the best of me. I cannot direct my focus or attention anywhere, and I think it's really goin to start effecting people other than myself if i don't change it...
My journal is practically empty.
My soul is drained.
My flow is drying out.
My life is chaning, and unbenounced to me...I have to roll with it.