glassdragon

In our weakest moments, we are always alone.
to sit, to think, to cry, and to do things we nornally wouldn't do if someone was there to tell us everything was ok.

I'm SICK of feeking guilty. guilty for the way I feel, for the things I want...

I'm nervous about training tomorrow. hopefully it wont be too too hard...

is it too much to ask? to want to have something that is mine...you know...like a LIFE....
I dont want to answer to anyone for my actions anymore. its MY life and only I have a say in what I do now...

and then the guilt comes...I fucking hate how he does that. I love him, I truly do and I NEVER wanted to hurt him, but its been hurting me so much more to lie to myself, and pretend that i"m happy when in the back of my mind I'm not. Its NOT FAIR.

I love him...but i'm not IN love with him.