glassdragon

I really dont wanna be the kind of person who lets money get between us. but this is fucking ridiculous.
he so foolishly spends all his money when he KNOWS he has to put 200$ aside for his stupid fucking tattoo. and then doesn't even really asks me if i will lend him the money, but instead he just ASSUMES that I will lend it to him.
I begrugingly do. but only becasue he PROMISES me that he will pay me back the second he gets paid again.
TWO FUCKING PAYCHECKS LATER and he STILL hasn't paid me back.
he's a fucking goddamned leach. he thinks i'm giong to put up with his bullshit forever?!
I have fucking bills to pay too....
he was supposed to pay our bell bill this paycheck too, but low and behold since he decided to not go to work so often his paycheck is sooooooooooo bad that he cant even do fucking that.

I'm so tired of this bullshit. SO FUCKING TIRED. I have 800 or so dollars I have to pay off on my visa and I cant becasue i have to continuously cover his goddamn stupid ass for expenses. I have a 75$ bill at the hospital thats on its last notice because i haven't had the money to pay it off (or know where to pay it off...)
godfucking damnit.

I dont wanna have to do this, but I think i'm going to have to take on a second job just to support myself. I cant deal with this anymore....I really fucking cant. its practically already killed our relationship. I resent him every fucking moment for this bullshit. and i honestly see nothing of value keeping us together anymore.

I dont know what to do. I really dont. I'm so angry and hurt and I feel so goddamned used. I'm not a girlfriend I'm a fucking paycheck it seems. it hurts.
and I am missing three FUCKING days of work because i hurt my back so bad i can barely walk....

I cant ask my parents for help anymore. they've already done so much for me, it wouldn't be fair.
so much for being independent.

GOD FUCKING DAMNIT. what do I do.............what fucking can I do?!?
I'm crying...