sitting here in the place I grew up.
The place where so many tears were shed.
The place where I would spend hours alone, listening to the sounds of the night and putting pen to paper in both word and shape.
self reflection always comes easily here. My home, my family, my life, my past.
these walls...
oh these walls of my past.
the many sleepless nights, for me, for my parents.
the many questions.
the many emotions.
my family...
...MY family.
I've neglected you too long. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for what I put you all through. mother, father.
I'm sorry for scaring you into sleepless nights.
I'm sorry for making you angry, hurt, sad.
I'm sorry for everything.
I'll make everything up to you...I dont know how long it will take to make up for a life of angsty decisions.
"everything must end...I love you, my false friend"
words I wrote, lived by and always knew was true when i was younger.
they were never my friends. friends dont steal and lie from you. friends dont spread rumours behind your back and laugh about it later. friends....friends.
there are so few of you I call friends and truly mean it now.
bridges burned, hearts torn. and yet i'm so forgiving. a simple apology and everything seems brighter.
I dont know what i'm going on about anymore.
i'm just reflecting on my 17 years within these walls...
The place where so many tears were shed.
The place where I would spend hours alone, listening to the sounds of the night and putting pen to paper in both word and shape.
self reflection always comes easily here. My home, my family, my life, my past.
these walls...
oh these walls of my past.
the many sleepless nights, for me, for my parents.
the many questions.
the many emotions.
my family...
...MY family.
I've neglected you too long. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for what I put you all through. mother, father.
I'm sorry for scaring you into sleepless nights.
I'm sorry for making you angry, hurt, sad.
I'm sorry for everything.
I'll make everything up to you...I dont know how long it will take to make up for a life of angsty decisions.
"everything must end...I love you, my false friend"
words I wrote, lived by and always knew was true when i was younger.
they were never my friends. friends dont steal and lie from you. friends dont spread rumours behind your back and laugh about it later. friends....friends.
there are so few of you I call friends and truly mean it now.
bridges burned, hearts torn. and yet i'm so forgiving. a simple apology and everything seems brighter.
I dont know what i'm going on about anymore.
i'm just reflecting on my 17 years within these walls...
A chance for a new begining... perhaps a renewal for some things past... definitly stripping away what was not sincere.
Find Peace Love!
*Tighter hugs back at ya!*
PS... the ending.
You are totally right. Friends don't do that. They stay by you think and thin.
I am like that too, I can forgive anyone for anything... I just see the good in people and I forgive.
Have a great day!