glassdragon

my cousin denny died last night at 11:30pm.
he had a heart attack.
I dont know what to really think or feel. we weren't close, but we were family...

its exceptionally windy outside, and rain, and wind and rain and more wind and possibly rain again.
I'd like to know something...
why do you love me?
why?
you love me and I rip your heart in two, and I'm starting to not give a damn anymore.


I got a haircut.
yessir, I certainly got a haircut.
pictures soon?
maybe...

I cant eat.
I can barely sleep.
I feel ill.
my heart is bleeding through my shirt.

I'm nearing the end of this chapter and I'm dreading the end of the page...

I'm going to run home...like a dog with her tail between her legs...to my parents.

and if this is where it all ends with me and the boy..so be it. I know a...
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so much thinking since friday night...so much soul searching.
I think I'm nearing the end of a chapter in my life that I once though would last forever.
I'm scared of the fall, I'm scared of the hurt I may cause if this is really the end of what has lasted us three weird crazy good bad years....

I got my first booty call last night.

wow.

I'm a fucking wreck right now.
I really dont know what to make of all this, but I know that I have these feelings and I dont know what to do with them.
This is the first real oppertunity that has come along for me to explore things outside my relationship with graham...and fuck do I ever want to. I'm scared though, so scared. I'm...
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I'm upset, frustraited and almost at the end of my rope.
is it too much to ask, and ask and ASK to NOT constantly throw your clothes on the floor on your side of the bed?

didn't think so....
fucking asswipe...

edited*

I AM GOING TO FUCKING DESTROY MY FUCKING CATS...

my god, they fucking turned into the biggest assholes ever recently fuck...

So I didn't get to go out last night AGAIN like I planned...because...I kinda stubbed my toe and did everything but break the damned thing. i cant really walk on it, its all purple and swollen. The bloody thing hurts like a bastard. I cried...alot...
you know you've done more than just stub your toe when it actually makes you hysterically cry.
can this week...
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I didn't think there was a possible way to step on this womans toes at work..but alas, today I did...and I fucked up even mroe than last time...

I really need to start paying attention to details...

her catering was cancled for today and tomorrow...we delivered it anywas...becasue I had lost the paper stating that...

she was pissed....very pissed...

I feel like a grand fuck...
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