Thursday Jun 01, 2006

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so the boy i love from far away asked me to buy a one way ticket and stay there with him.

Its sooooooooooo tempting, SO TEMPTING.
I wish i had the guts to just pick up everything and run away and start a new life.

I wish..
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omega668:
its soooooooo bad..
i am like ITCHING for it ..
tattoos are like crack for me
hahaa
myomiao:
awww cute. miao!!

it's a big decision though.

Wednesday May 31, 2006

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so a fridge door fell on my foot today.
spent a fun morning/afternoon at the hospital in seering pain.
i'm off the rest of the week on like...work comp or something. meaning i still get paid because it happened at work and totally was NOT my fault.
like c'mon...how the hell could i make a fridge door fall on my foot intentionally tongue

my totally rad...
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jimbo:
i dunno why.. though it wasn't as painful as what happened to you.. but i used to work in a warehouse where we loaded rich people furnature into semitrucks.. well i had two stacked on ontop on each other (fridge that is) and i slipped somehow and both of em landed on me.. i couldn't feel my arm for a couple days..


ambientlight:
Ohhh... ouch!!! Damn, that had to have hurt!

I do hope Canada's workman's comp is better that the USA's.

Also hope you feel better soon!

frown kiss frown

Monday May 29, 2006

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I GOT MY Temper PRINT biggrinbiggrinbiggrinbiggrinbiggrinbiggrinbiggrin

unfortunatly the bastards who deliver the mail decided to FOLD it into the mailbox...so it has a crease in it now >.<
nothing a few days in a really heavy book wont fix but damnit sometimes I wish people would be more careful.

thank you so much sweetie I cant wait till i get a frame so I can put...
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temper:
Oh my fuck! That's never happened before. How can they be so stupid? It's not like it was poster-size... I'm glad you're still happy though...

kiss

Sunday May 28, 2006

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today i get to see the colour work for my arm piece.
and it is only 8 days to go before i get the line work started...FINALY!
i'm so excited I could burst...literally.

I'm like 90% over the whole ben thing. heh, its not really worth the time or effort to try and be his friend becuase he just wont do the same in return....
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ambientlight:
Cool you're gettin' out & kickin' it on the dancefloor... one of my favorite releases.

Love to see pix of the new armpiece.

Glad you're over Ben... unrecipricated effort is sooo annoying!

surreal
tilpacer:
YAY! Happy fun time dancing! biggrin

YAY! SG prints! biggrin

YAY! Tattoo work! biggrin

Have a great day! biggrin

Saturday May 27, 2006

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last night went out dancing.

have FIVE boys like...fighting to dance with me. i felt like a superstar and was getting twirled around from partner to partner.

going back tonight to meet one of the boys on the dancefloor again...he was really nice tongue
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tilpacer:
YAY! Way to go! biggrin

Have a great time! biggrin And don't burn up the dance floor to much. tongue biggrin
ambientlight:
Boys competing for your attention... sweet! That's how it should be, love.

Happy to hear you're having a good time.

Thursday May 25, 2006

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fuck it.
just fuck it.
I'm torn between forgetting about everything and just moving on, and doing something really stupid and really rash.

...my mind isn't my own anymore.. blackeyed
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ardour:
Sounds like you're going through some similar thoughts as myself at the moment.

I just try and remember that all this shit that we go through is a small price to pay for the infinite possibilities that we have in the rest of our life.
rxdxt:
don't do anything rash, unless it's creating a massive and life improving change.

Otherwise, take a break then sort out your feelings.

Me, I always over-react and act rash and regret it.

So do as I say, not as I do.

Wednesday May 24, 2006

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The new red hot chili peppers CD is kicking my ass right now. I freaking love it. to the max.

there so much hidden beauty in the world. why cant I see any of it right now?
c'mon life, prove you're worth something to me, I'm just not feeling it these days.

I am getting really tired of this shit.
I'm seriously thinking about going...
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solaris:
sorry about everything. i wish i could help. leave me a comment or send me a message any time if you need to talk. <3
ferrara:
I know that you have it in you my dearest kiss miao!!

Sunday May 21, 2006

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I bought a dress.
yes, thats right.
I bought a freaking dress.
it looks hot, I look hot in it. right on.

I wanna do the mosh pit dancing again frown
farrie next friday I DEMAND we go to phods together and do the mosh pit dance and be all like ZOMG TAKING OVER THE DANCE FLOOR.
becasue thats what we totally did this past friday....
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dinah:
it's funny what a hot dress and even hotter high heels will do for a girl's ego...especially when you know you look hot in them wink I'm not apologizing for who I am...just some of the things I've been doing...I just went through a very strange phase and hurt some people while doing it, but as of now, that phase is over. illegal kisses.......that has led to the end of a twisted journey of mine, thus, the end of that phase. It intrigues, confuses, and turns me on as well smile
zeewhiteninja:
I can't imagine you in a dress...

but high heels are hot

Saturday May 20, 2006

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I dyed my hair red. like..a crazy natural looking red, but its kinda bright i dunno.
it looks ok, i'm happy with it.

he confuses me and makes me angry.
I DONT want to be his girlfriend, I DONT want a fucking comitment from him. I just want to be acknowledged, not ditched all the time. like, seriously, is it too much to ask to...
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sirpsychosexy:
Oooh I love red hair. love

Pictures! Pictures! biggrin
sirpsychosexy:
I am listening to them too shocked

Do you have the new Stadium Arcadium disks?

Thursday May 18, 2006

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sitting here in the place I grew up.
The place where so many tears were shed.
The place where I would spend hours alone, listening to the sounds of the night and putting pen to paper in both word and shape.
self reflection always comes easily here. My home, my family, my life, my past.
these walls...
oh these walls of my past.
the many...
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ambientlight:
Welcome home!

A chance for a new begining... perhaps a renewal for some things past... definitly stripping away what was not sincere.

Find Peace Love!

*Tighter hugs back at ya!*

smile kiss smile

PS... the ending.
tilpacer:
It is good to go home once in a while... reminds us where we have been and how we got to where we are. The mistakes we made, the lessons we learned...

You are totally right. Friends don't do that. They stay by you think and thin.

I am like that too, I can forgive anyone for anything... I just see the good in people and I forgive.

Have a great day! biggrin

Wednesday May 17, 2006

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you know, I think i'm being a bit...obsessive. i'm going to back off and not call him hahhahaha.
why is it always the case of wanting what you cant have...its so lame.
I'm getting another haircut i think. I needs it shorter SHORTER!!
I was growing it long, but i'm all like.. FUCK IT! i miss my choppy short weird hair!
I may even dye...
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temper:
That made me grin. biggrin
ambientlight:
Thank you Love!

I think it's being a rough month for both us!

*Hugs you right back*

PS... you commented when I was editing my last entry... you might want to read the revised version.

Tuesday May 16, 2006

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there is only one person who can really drag me out of the house tonight, and I know he wont call...
its funny how you can feel so connected to a person over such a short period of time.
its not just about sex, even though the sex was great. he intrigues me as a person I'd like to know better.
I dont want him...
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ambientlight:
If you feel the connection for real... go with it. I just learned how rare & precious that is!

Thank you by the way, for your kind words!

surreal kiss surreal
ambientlight:
Thank You!

I love you too!
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