I'm calm but uneasy.
I fell in love a little bit again last night...and its starting to ache...
I dont really have much of an update on my life, its not really that important anyways. the point is that I'm still alive, still finding reasons to go on....
Farrie has me rethinking everything. bless that girl, i'm going to see the world with her!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its...
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I fell in love a little bit again last night...and its starting to ache...
I dont really have much of an update on my life, its not really that important anyways. the point is that I'm still alive, still finding reasons to go on....
Farrie has me rethinking everything. bless that girl, i'm going to see the world with her!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its...
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h'okay.
so...uh....
I dunno.
life is lame.
I am lame.
my back is lame
alot of things are lame right now.
cant get in to see the crazy doctor till teh 16th of october :| LAME
uhm
yeah..
I really have nothing of great importance to say really.
me and the boy are going to get a two bedroom apartment together.
dont tell me its...
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so...uh....
I dunno.
life is lame.
I am lame.
my back is lame
alot of things are lame right now.
cant get in to see the crazy doctor till teh 16th of october :| LAME
uhm
yeah..
I really have nothing of great importance to say really.
me and the boy are going to get a two bedroom apartment together.
dont tell me its...
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terminator_77:
i mentioned you in my blog update! 
tilpacer:
Just because you back is lame doesn't make you lame. You are a awesome girl. 
Have a great day!
Have a great day!
hahhaahhhahha
god bless the internet (mainly myspace) for helping me find out that cute ska boy aka sean, has a girlfriend!
now i wont make a fool of myself if i go to his show this friday *thumbs up for that*
I spent a good 6 hours last night, on webcam with Davie.
fuck
i'm so in love
but we're so far apart. it hurts....
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god bless the internet (mainly myspace) for helping me find out that cute ska boy aka sean, has a girlfriend!
now i wont make a fool of myself if i go to his show this friday *thumbs up for that*
I spent a good 6 hours last night, on webcam with Davie.
fuck
i'm so in love
but we're so far apart. it hurts....
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lemanstherogue:
awwww.. 
... it'd be cute!
Hope all works out!.... EH! see ya in like... 3 weeks!
... it'd be cute!
Hope all works out!
.... EH! see ya in like... 3 weeks!
what an insane weekend.
I feel almost obligated to remain sober for a while.
but my reality sucks.
I met a boy last night.
a cute ska boy.
i know him from somewhere but dont know where.
his band is playing a show this friday at end hits.
I'm going just to see him again. great dancer
he probably wont like me since I drink...
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I feel almost obligated to remain sober for a while.
but my reality sucks.
I met a boy last night.
a cute ska boy.
i know him from somewhere but dont know where.
his band is playing a show this friday at end hits.
I'm going just to see him again. great dancer
he probably wont like me since I drink...
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adamking42:
then hes a putz....dont stay sober, its bad for the soul!
tilpacer:
I don't drink and I like people who do. Just don't get smashed all the time and he will be yours.
YAY! Meeting cute boys!
Have a great day!
YAY! Meeting cute boys!
Have a great day!
meh.
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johnlennon:
im sad, i didnt get to talk to you for like 2 days now 
saffron:
your new tattoo is fantastic!!
who do you turn to in these moments of utter weakness.
who do you turn to when its late at night, or early in the morning and everyone is alseep?
its moments like these that make me realise how weak i really am and how pathetic I seem.
I want to talk to someone, to know i'm not alone right now.
but everyone is asleep,...
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who do you turn to when its late at night, or early in the morning and everyone is alseep?
its moments like these that make me realise how weak i really am and how pathetic I seem.
I want to talk to someone, to know i'm not alone right now.
but everyone is asleep,...
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ambientlight:
Ultimately... we are all alone. While this may seem disconcerting, realization of this can bring inner peace. What we seek from others is actually an inner journey seeking psychological & spiritual integration. Oftentimes our outer world is a reflection of our self-conceptions (or misconceptions).
It is scary to look within... to sort out the jumbled mess of thoughts & feelings we mistakenly identify ourselves by. But this journey brings many rewards for those who survive it... self-knowledge, strength, inner peace, creativity... excellence. I cherish my alone times... they are far too rare.
You are not weak, you are not pathetic... you are in transition & that can be scary. Welcome to being human. Forget sanity... it's highly over-rated.
It is scary to look within... to sort out the jumbled mess of thoughts & feelings we mistakenly identify ourselves by. But this journey brings many rewards for those who survive it... self-knowledge, strength, inner peace, creativity... excellence. I cherish my alone times... they are far too rare.
You are not weak, you are not pathetic... you are in transition & that can be scary. Welcome to being human. Forget sanity... it's highly over-rated.
poolboy6:
To you I recommend The Tao of Pook, the book that made me relax and not worry so much about things.
Even when we are with people, they aren't us, so in a sense, we are very much alone. The more we can relate with people, the less we feel that way, but when you understand that it's you that makes it happen in your life, embrace it, and move forward, all of that anxiety melts away.
It never goes away completely, I still get down in the dumps, but it's easier to bounce back and you never fall as far as you used to...
Even when we are with people, they aren't us, so in a sense, we are very much alone. The more we can relate with people, the less we feel that way, but when you understand that it's you that makes it happen in your life, embrace it, and move forward, all of that anxiety melts away.
It never goes away completely, I still get down in the dumps, but it's easier to bounce back and you never fall as far as you used to...
Things are so fucked up.
I cant stop thinking about this boy....
a new boy...
god i sound like such a whore.
I want a chance with him.
I want to be with him.
and only him.
I dont want to do this open thing anymore.
I used to see a future with graham, now i dont.
the love isn't gone, I care so much...
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I cant stop thinking about this boy....
a new boy...
god i sound like such a whore.
I want a chance with him.
I want to be with him.
and only him.
I dont want to do this open thing anymore.
I used to see a future with graham, now i dont.
the love isn't gone, I care so much...
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ambientlight:
I wish I had more friends in my real-life like you too...
thisfire:
Oh, and you don't sound like a whore. You sound like a 20 year old. Good thing you are one, eh?
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tilpacer:
That is a great tattoo.... it is sooo cute.
Have a great day!
Have a great day!
I dont wanna, but I think I have to take a trip to the hospital tonight........
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ambientlight:
Whatever the reason, I hope all turns out good.
Miss you Dragonette!
Miss you Dragonette!
issay:
whats the name of the coffee shop?
bens a good artist, I love his style
I really wanna get my ribs done there but i dont think i can cause im fucking poor now that im jobless
bens a good artist, I love his style
I really wanna get my ribs done there but i dont think i can cause im fucking poor now that im jobless
Justin Timberlake is my guilty pleasure.
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sega_____:
oh dear oh dear oh dear *shakes head*
badronald:
yeah, musically he 'rocks'.
I don't get why it has to be a guilty pleasure though. He's perfect pop music to dance to.
I can think of a thousand bands/songs worse than him (Crazy Fog anyone??).
As a DJ, I know if I through on Timberlake, the dance floor gets filled instantly.
I don't get why it has to be a guilty pleasure though. He's perfect pop music to dance to.
I can think of a thousand bands/songs worse than him (Crazy Fog anyone??).
As a DJ, I know if I through on Timberlake, the dance floor gets filled instantly.
I really dont wanna be the kind of person who lets money get between us. but this is fucking ridiculous.
he so foolishly spends all his money when he KNOWS he has to put 200$ aside for his stupid fucking tattoo. and then doesn't even really asks me if i will lend him the money, but instead he just ASSUMES that I will lend it...
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he so foolishly spends all his money when he KNOWS he has to put 200$ aside for his stupid fucking tattoo. and then doesn't even really asks me if i will lend him the money, but instead he just ASSUMES that I will lend it...
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ardour:
I am thinking of quitting my job and just doing nothing, because every girl I know always seems to end up with guys like that. It seems to be a great way to get a cool girlfriend.
But seriously, if you are unhappy, then there is no point. If you've let him know and he understand how much this bothers you... and he still hasn't done anything to change it, he obviously doesn't value you, and you deserve better.
But seriously, if you are unhappy, then there is no point. If you've let him know and he understand how much this bothers you... and he still hasn't done anything to change it, he obviously doesn't value you, and you deserve better.
tilpacer:
I wish I knew what to say to help you.
I wish I knew what to say to help you.
infatuation?
lust?
fondness?
friendship?
...love?
so much....
lust?
fondness?
friendship?
...love?
so much....
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ambientlight:
Why care? Don't need to label it... just enjoy the ride.
I think I woke half of Helena with my screaming.