glamerdork

... I realized why I never put any effort into the relationship. I always felt like he expected it too much. I greatly enjoy going out of my way to do sweet things for the people I love... but with him I always felt like I'd do something sweet and it would turn into this game of always having to better myself to impress him. You might say that this is how relationships work, but it's not how they work in my book. I want to be with someone who appreciates me for who I am-- who doesn't need me to "dress up for them" to prove that I care. However, I will inevitably do these other things for that type of person because they don't "ask for it"-- although it has taken 6 months for my ex to specifically "ask for it", he has gone out of his way to hint at how I don't do these things in a guilt-trip sort of fashion ever since day one. It has gotten worse over the duration of the relationship to the point where I just couldn't take it anymore. So, now that my head is clear enough to think straight, I've decided that my idea to never be in a relationship again is not going to work. I just want to find someone who is a tad bit more down to earth... who enjoys having someone that they can just be themselves with. Leave it to me, the eternal pessimist to have faith that somewhere out there this person exists. Who woulda thunk it?