glamerdork

watching the tonys reminds me of how much I want to be a performer..

it's kind of depressing, thinking that I've given up on my dream all because I've never fit the mold of people who succeed...

I never really fit anywhere.

I'm definitely not a suicide girl.
I'm not skinny and beautiful like a lead actress
I'm not weird enough or fat enough to get a character role
I'm not the best singer,
my dancing is even worse...

all I have is the way I look at the world,
and the ability to express that in my own unique way

God, how I want to sing...
to sing on a stage with an orchestra-

that is my dream--
I don't need an audience,
although it would be nice.
I just need a stage
and lights
and music
and me-

one day...
maybe one day..

I guess I shouldn't give up
sure it's hard
sure only one in a billion can make it
but if I don't try, then I have no chance at all-
why can't I be that one who rewrites the rules?

Why can't I?