glamerdork

i tend to bitch about my current internship too much. reasoning: underpaid, underappreciated, not quite overworked but given work a third grader could complete. so i'm looking elsewhere, for a more intellectually stimulating position. at least one that allows for some responsibility. i understand that i've proved myself untrustworthy at my current organization, fine, but when they treat me like a 2 year old i tend to act like one. i've decided that what i need is a real job. because interning is fun and all, but when it's not in a field i want to pursue, it seems pointless. i also realized i'm most qualified for a job working at an organization dealing w/ GLBTQ youth. afterall, much of my free time in high school & college was spent volunteering/performing/working with GLBT organizations. It's not like I'm a hardcore activist, I'm just a regular bi-gal who happens to feel passionate about supporting GLBTQ youth. plus, i got kind of pissed at my internship when, in a meeting discussing the GLBT night my theatre company has which I was somewhat put in charge of marketing it was brought up that the person in charge of marketing should be gay or lesbian. I probably should have said something like- hey, don't you know what the B stands for in GLBT? but instead I kept quiet. Anyway...

so, it turns out the local glbt youth org has a position open that I think I'd be a good fit for. I'm thinking- if I find an organization I care about, I'll do a much better job. I'm just frustrated at my current dead-end internship. It's a year-long full-time position in marketing at an arts org and all I'm doing is admin work. I'm bored, everytime i try to be remotely creative I get yelled at because I'm "wasting time." I know I'm not brilliant, but I think I've got good ideas on occasion, and if there is one thing I hate, it's being ignored, begin muffled, and being on the bottom of the food chain. Maybe it's nieve of me to expect anything more as a recent college grad, but heck, I do, or at least I expect to be making minimum wage on the bottom of the food chain. Well. Maybe I'll get this full-time real job working w/ the GLBTQ youth org. That would be cool. It would offer some responsibility... yes, I had responsibility w/ my internship once upon a time, but that responsibility was SO limited. Well. enough bitching for now. I should go to sleep. It's 3:42am and I do have, um, internswerk at 9am.