gjudge

Ok, so today i realized....i shouldnt go out drinking alone.....it makes me think too much........makes me depressed. i sometimes sit in my house all alone and i've never feel like that, looking at all the people in the pub, some talking to friends.......and the same old lonely elderly guy drinking alone in the corner........just looking at these people makes me think, what the fuck im i doing in here? i guess i just need to get outta the house now and again. But then you start thinking about the past, like when i first moved into this house with my fiancee...it was great at first....until we started arguing and stuff...then broke up. it was good at first, new house, wife to be....then nothing! im still stuck in limbo, i meet lotsa girls but theres too much damn ice on this heart to feel that way again, you know...the "L" word.

dammit if this keeps up, in 40 years time, that elderly man sat in the corner, drinking alone will be me. ; ;