Maybe it's something more than what I most want. Maybe it's laying just under my fingertips. Maybe it is my fingertips. Crackedandbitten. No more of this.. I must be free. Free my mind. Free my soul. Free myself from myself.
Eeeeee I saw a little fancy rat when I was walking my dog this morning. XD He was sooooo adorable. But I didn't wanna touch it.. I'd rather not get rabies today. But he sure was cute. =]
Open the curtain.. and let in some sky.
It's almost half past two AM, and you can tell by the light.
Open your window.. and let in the atmosphere.
Let it breakthrough.
Feet scraping gently on the floor. I feel different than before.
I never comprehend life. I just don't understand what it is I should be doing. Or feeling. Or acting like.
Sometimes I just want to leave. Cause maybe it's not meant for me? None of this? Maybe it's further out there. Deeper into the ocean of chaos that leads us all.
come on, kid! you hold all the power.
what's there to worry about? you got the world by the balls...
now you just need tell the world to do your bidding!
So I need a new look. I've come to this conclusion. I'm sick of not doing things that I want to do about my appearance for the fear of not adhering to conformity.. and other reasons. Fuck that. I want pink and purple hair with extensions. I want my cheeks pierced. But I think I could just go for a vert labret. Dunno.. In like... Read More
So I won't. I will just say that realizations of the truth come frequently to me.. None of which have ever topped yesterday's. So I suppose I'll just leave it at that..
Cause I guess I should feel accomplished? I'm not really sure if I feel that way. Maybe later. Maybe after I'm done getting a little... Read More
Well... most people start at the beginning. (unless you're George Lucas)
The truth can be astounding at times. Most people don't spend too much time in reality. Here i am right now sitting in this room, typing this respnse to you rather than going outside and interacting with a "real" person. But i don't think people really want to know the truth.
All i can say, knowing absolutely nothing of what you speak, is that you should feel a sense of accomplishment if that which you have accomplished makes you feel proud.
Finally ready to get some work done and done, son.
There's been a murrrda, bitch I make a killin.
Woot. Went to a lingerie show at the Rio this week and my agent, Kyle bought me all sorts of goodies. XD My personal favorites are my new posture collar, my fuzzy pink wrist cuffs, "Lez-Be-Friends" shirt, "Treat me like the bitch I am" shirt, and... Read More