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Back from Costa Rica again. Found out I'm going home on the 18th of next month. Kind of discouraging.. I'm pretty much over living in a 3rd world country. It's honestly beyond me why my mom wanted to get a house here.. It's beautiful and everything but jesus you thought the crime was bad in NY? These people will do ANYTHING to break into your house I mean ANYTHING. From gassing you in your sleep to poisoning your dogs.. IN BROAD DAYLIGHT. I mean I don't really feel that safe here. We had to have a town meeting here because some 8 year old girl got raped by a 15 year old, then stole everything in their house down to the face plates on the electrical sockets. That's insanity. They make children do their dirty work so they don't get caught and the kids receive no punishment. None. They get slapped on the hand. And 10 times out of 10 white people are in the wrong. I heard a story about a Gringa who was walking down the road, and some Panamanian woman threw a fucking small boulder into her chest.. She ran to the police and then SHE got arrested. Wtf???? This place is completely backasswards. It's ridiculous. You can't even leave your house for 5 minutes without someone breaking into it. So there has to be someone in the house at all times. I heard another story about a gay white man who had a party and then no one heard from him for like 8 days. Finally a neighbor smelled something in his house and walked in to find him dead. That's so fucked up. Everywhere I go, the women scowl at me and say shit in Spanish behind my back (thinking that I don't understand them) and the men whistle and say disgusting things to me and it's just getting to the point where I want to kill everyone that fucks with me. I have red hair and blue eyes so that just automatically makes me some freak I guess. These people are so fucking stupid. My mom doesn't even own a gun which I think is also extremely stupid.. But legally she can't buy one because she's not a citizen. You best believe I'd be getting one under the table cause I have NO QUALMS about shooting a motherfucker. My mom's like "just carry pepper spray." HAHA I don't wanna give a nigga no skin rash. I wanna shut that nigga down.

Western ways are of no value here. If someone runs into you while you're driving OR EVEN WALKING on the street your fucked because your white. I mean, I never, repeat, NEVER judge people by their skin color or the way they look but here it's just ridiculous. Mainly I fear getting raped, so I never even go out alone. It's quite lame.

Plus all the Gringos here are fucking bonkers.. They live in a fantasy. It's annoying. I'm a realist and stupid people annoy me. Maybe I'm just the stupid one eh? Apparently.

"People are strange, when you're a stranger. Faces come out in the rain. When you're strange."