givememedicine

things don't always work out the way you want them to and that's how life is. it's a fact. subconciously i always knew this. but i refuse to let anything block my way when i want something. it's funny becuase i wanted two seperate things. and they were in two seperate places. either way i would have won something. it dosen't matter in life what you want.. it's how you get it. and i'm coming with ammends that i will most likely forever be misunderstood. i really thought i found someone who did understand me, but i don't know if that's possible. maybe no one is ever really 'understood'. all i know is that i don't need someone to make me happy. i can make myself happy with whatever my decisions are. there are so many things that i will never forget about the past 5 months of my life. i would never want to erase them anyway. my life has already changed so much and it's never going to stop. continuous personal change is amazing. in spite of all the stress, i haven't been happier in a long time. i've been facing some of my greatest fears including my mom. i finally feel as though i'm living instead of existing. and it's pretty much the best feeling ever.

thank you for everyone who has ever been there for me and helped me believe in myself again. namely i'm talking about a couple select people, and even moreso one in particular. i honestly wish you the best of luck and hope that you find happiness. you deserve it more than anyone.

and as for everything else.. denver here i come. and yeah.. nothing can stop me now.

peace.