I've been thinking a lot. After going off the deep end multiple times this week.. I do believe I need something more. I just want something. To know I'm real. I don't think I'll ever find it though. At least not right now. It's like I'm having so many different thoughts and my head is leaking. It's leaking out everywhere. And I just stare off into space.
I read a lot now. I'm reading two books. One of which is "The Golden Ratio" by Mario Livio. I can't wait to get the line work for my conch shell done on my chest. I feel like I'll be significantly closer to myself. I want to balance myself out. Maybe this is how I'm supposed to be? Unbalanced in my own parallel universe. Something no one can see but myself.
"Take deep breaths and hold them. Try to stay still for longer and longer periods of time. Make yourself small and like a stone. Curl the edges of yourself up and fold them under where no one can see."
I need someone to snuggle with now that the cold weather is coming.
I read a lot now. I'm reading two books. One of which is "The Golden Ratio" by Mario Livio. I can't wait to get the line work for my conch shell done on my chest. I feel like I'll be significantly closer to myself. I want to balance myself out. Maybe this is how I'm supposed to be? Unbalanced in my own parallel universe. Something no one can see but myself.
"Take deep breaths and hold them. Try to stay still for longer and longer periods of time. Make yourself small and like a stone. Curl the edges of yourself up and fold them under where no one can see."
I need someone to snuggle with now that the cold weather is coming.
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wisdomtooth:
Conch Shell Chestpiece? Sounds like it could be sweet. And yeah vinyl is awesome such an addiction though. My name is Zack.
priapos:
You'll find it, and stillness of mind will help you enjoy it.