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Hm. Things are what they are.. then they change. What would we be without change? I am not the same person I was yesterday. Or the day before. And never will I be that person again.

uhhh. people bore me. dogs do not however. =] i <3 tony. he makes me happy when everyone else sucks. he knows not of manipulation or immaturity. BUT he...
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Getting ready for this weekend. Hopefully it'll be as busy as i think it will be. Lots of work. That's how i dig it though. XD

TIME FOR SOME RAMBLINGS! woot.

have you ever had that feeling that everything is so mixed up but still just fine? like you don't know what the hell is going on but you're still just fine with it. we...
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Sooo things are looking much better. I got myself an agent and a photographer so i'll be doing some modeling and such. i'm going to a photo shoot tonight and then another tomorrow so i'll post some of those pictures up once i get it going. hmmmm.. got school pretty much squared away and i'm seeing another doctor on thursday so i can really figure...
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sooooo i don't really know anymore.. i think i'm very sick. i went to the obgyn to do my yearly check up crap and they found weird stuff in my va jay jay so i had surgery about a week and a half ago to remove it because it was considered strange and they wanted to see what it was.. and the other day i...
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going back home for a week or so. i'm ready. it'll be interesting i hope.

some days i'm focused. some days i'm lethargic. but i know nothing but persistence. per usual..

getting back on track has proved itself difficult, but worth it. accomplishment is a mystery to some. i can't wait to travel. to understand everything.

my life is still beginning. it's so new. and...
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What's coming through is alive.
What's holding up is a mirror.
But what's singing songs is a snake
looking to turn my piss to wine.
They're both totally void of hate,
but killing me just the same.
The snake behind me hisses what my damage could have.
My blood before me begs me open up my heart again.
And I feel this coming over like...
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there is so much rage and malice in my heart. this is the moment where i no longer give a shit about pretty much anything. i can feel a black shroud over my eyes and it fuels me. sometimes i feel so much anger that i can't see straight.

fuck who you are and fuck what you think. i am something so much better and...
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Ug. my body has been refusing me. i don't understand it.. i can't sleep. i can't eat. i'm always tired. my stomach hurts about 24/7.. i woke up in this weird cold sweat this morning. i feel so completely drained.. i hope i start feeling better soon. life has been.. uh. yeah. lifey. it's been so terrible at work lately.. it's really starting to bring...
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hmmm i imagine it's epiphany day.. good thing too b/c i was starting to wonder..

so where to start eh? well i guess i'll just start from the middle. seeing as how no one does that. who knows what the middle is anyway?

i'm never again going to assume that i'm anything other than what i am. i'm no fucking saint. i'm not innocent. i'm...
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invasion so succexy.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm touch it.

Yey I'm back. Give me lovez.