what are words? what are they really?
i just nod away. you slip that knife further into my back. i feel the blood dripping down my spine. Hm too bad for you. i love the pain.
keep telling me you won't fuck me and then stab me repeatedly. Hahahahahahahahahahhaahaaaaaaaaa i really find it funny. be my best friend to my face and then use me....
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i just nod away. you slip that knife further into my back. i feel the blood dripping down my spine. Hm too bad for you. i love the pain.
keep telling me you won't fuck me and then stab me repeatedly. Hahahahahahahahahahhaahaaaaaaaaa i really find it funny. be my best friend to my face and then use me....
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soooo i've been doing alright. i worked almost 55 hours this week alone. just kinda biding my time before i leave. i'm so fucking excited. i can't even explain to anyone. it's crazy. anyway. i actually cancelled my account here on sg for the time being, so i have till the end of feb. i'm going to get it turned back on, but i can't...
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billytheseal:
i might be the wrong person to ask if you should become a hopefull...... 
anyway, it's cool to see you're excited about the move, and i'll hope you'll be back on here soon. keep on chuggin.
lovez (urgh, i'm far too old to say stuff like that...)
anyway, it's cool to see you're excited about the move, and i'll hope you'll be back on here soon. keep on chuggin.
lovez (urgh, i'm far too old to say stuff like that...)
shanksystem:
well you know id love to see a set of yurs up here. cuz i agree, alot of the sets that "make it" all just look the same, gets pretty old after a while. plus you know yur like my favorite girl anyways. hehe. anyways. talk to ya later. me and colorado are waitin. hehe. 
things don't always work out the way you want them to and that's how life is. it's a fact. subconciously i always knew this. but i refuse to let anything block my way when i want something. it's funny becuase i wanted two seperate things. and they were in two seperate places. either way i would have won something. it dosen't matter in life what...
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There is beauty in a breakdown.
There is something more than what people want you to be.
There is something worth fucking writing about now. I haven't written a real blog in quite some time.
I feel more real right now than I have in a long time and I'm not fucking scared to say it. Fuck everyone else and fuck making yourself a victim...
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There is something more than what people want you to be.
There is something worth fucking writing about now. I haven't written a real blog in quite some time.
I feel more real right now than I have in a long time and I'm not fucking scared to say it. Fuck everyone else and fuck making yourself a victim...
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priapos:
Even better.
shanksystem:
its good to see you so driven about something. i love it when perople can be strong like that and say fuck what other people think, im doin whats best for me. anyways, rock on with yur bad self. i hope to hear from ya soon 
I really hate being sober anymore.
I think it helps me not kill people everyday.
I got another job. I already want to kill myself. Unfortunately it has to be this way. $$$ = LYFE, DON'T YA KNOW?
I hate the way I feel today. Sometimes I wonder if I can handle anything. I hope I start feeling better.
But on a lighter note I...
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I think it helps me not kill people everyday.
I got another job. I already want to kill myself. Unfortunately it has to be this way. $$$ = LYFE, DON'T YA KNOW?
I hate the way I feel today. Sometimes I wonder if I can handle anything. I hope I start feeling better.
But on a lighter note I...
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majorboredom:
guess what... i got MSI tix, too! maybe i'll see ya there.
it's really difficult to be happy in this fucked up world and money is the reason why.
i'm the last person who should offer comfort... i can't remember a time when i didn't
think about dying on a daily basis... but i guess i should try...
When you've finally thrown up your hand
Poured your heart out, yet nothing stands
It seems our efforts are wasted
But yet it hasn't been in vain
Unfulfillment is killing you
Seems like no one shares the same view
We may have never met but
It might you who pulls me through
Stand up so I can see you
Shout out so I can hear you
Reach out so I can touch you
This is our emergency
Baby you don't have to be
A picture in a magazine
Sometimes you're to blind to see
Anything objectively
Just keep on doing your thing right now
Listen here take it from me
We're gonna do it differently
They'll follow when you start the lead
Strength in numbers is our key
Keep on doing your thing you do now
Don't forget that when you doubt
That anyone will care about
A thing you do and when you're lost
Someone else is always found
A thousand voices, are you listening?
The tiny spare that you create
It can inspire and duplicate
And soon it spreads from state to state
From Williamsburg to Silverlake
A thousand voices, are you listening?
This is our emergency
...hang in there kid.
it's really difficult to be happy in this fucked up world and money is the reason why.
i'm the last person who should offer comfort... i can't remember a time when i didn't
think about dying on a daily basis... but i guess i should try...
When you've finally thrown up your hand
Poured your heart out, yet nothing stands
It seems our efforts are wasted
But yet it hasn't been in vain
Unfulfillment is killing you
Seems like no one shares the same view
We may have never met but
It might you who pulls me through
Stand up so I can see you
Shout out so I can hear you
Reach out so I can touch you
This is our emergency
Baby you don't have to be
A picture in a magazine
Sometimes you're to blind to see
Anything objectively
Just keep on doing your thing right now
Listen here take it from me
We're gonna do it differently
They'll follow when you start the lead
Strength in numbers is our key
Keep on doing your thing you do now
Don't forget that when you doubt
That anyone will care about
A thing you do and when you're lost
Someone else is always found
A thousand voices, are you listening?
The tiny spare that you create
It can inspire and duplicate
And soon it spreads from state to state
From Williamsburg to Silverlake
A thousand voices, are you listening?
This is our emergency
...hang in there kid.
billytheseal:
being sober sucks. but it's far easier to keep drunk in my country. although, saying that, i find myself dreaming of death, either for myself or others a lot recently. you hang tough angel.
PEWN.
billytheseal:
yeah. i completely agree.
Please explain to me this: Why the fuck is life worth living?
People's main goals in life are to be financially stable and to be happy. Fuck that. I'll tell you one thing.. you're never going to be happy. So you might as well give that up. And second.. fuck money. I FUCKING HATE MONEY. Why the hell should I go to school? Why should...
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People's main goals in life are to be financially stable and to be happy. Fuck that. I'll tell you one thing.. you're never going to be happy. So you might as well give that up. And second.. fuck money. I FUCKING HATE MONEY. Why the hell should I go to school? Why should...
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priapos:
Thanks for getting that out. It helped me put some of my own shit in focus.
Money doesn't bring happiness, but "riding on the train with no dough SUCKS."
Do you get any exercise? I know that bicycling in Dallas would involve risking your life on a daily basis, but it sounds like that might improve your perspective also. Avoid pawnshop bikes, though, call different repair shops or just show up and be your cute self.
Your situation doesn't even deserve your attention until you improve your mindset. You'll only give a shit when you have to give a shit, or when you decide to.
Have you thought about washing dishes? Yeah, you'll get no respect unless you totally kick ass at it, but relative to working the front end NO ONE will give you any shit. Many places, you can... hell, people will expect you to maintain a constant stream of profanity. After a month, you'll probably be able to do the job stoned out of your gourd, to boot. You'll not lack time to consider what will truly make you happy. The main thing you have to [keywords: have to] do is show up every day.
Money doesn't bring happiness, but "riding on the train with no dough SUCKS."
Do you get any exercise? I know that bicycling in Dallas would involve risking your life on a daily basis, but it sounds like that might improve your perspective also. Avoid pawnshop bikes, though, call different repair shops or just show up and be your cute self.
Your situation doesn't even deserve your attention until you improve your mindset. You'll only give a shit when you have to give a shit, or when you decide to.
Have you thought about washing dishes? Yeah, you'll get no respect unless you totally kick ass at it, but relative to working the front end NO ONE will give you any shit. Many places, you can... hell, people will expect you to maintain a constant stream of profanity. After a month, you'll probably be able to do the job stoned out of your gourd, to boot. You'll not lack time to consider what will truly make you happy. The main thing you have to [keywords: have to] do is show up every day.
Too. Much. Dust.
High off cleannnnnnerrrr! Woot.
Been cleaning for the past two hours straight. Must. Sit. Down.
The OCD is rearing it's ugly head.. Who the fuck cleans a toaster!?!?!
Annnnywayyyyz. <3 DJ Shadow and Cut Chemist. <3 Mah boy. <3 Mah friends. <3 mc chris.
</3 $180 French book. </3 homework. </3 no moneyz for school shit. </3 my road rage =[[[[
FUCK...
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High off cleannnnnnerrrr! Woot.
Been cleaning for the past two hours straight. Must. Sit. Down.
The OCD is rearing it's ugly head.. Who the fuck cleans a toaster!?!?!
Annnnywayyyyz. <3 DJ Shadow and Cut Chemist. <3 Mah boy. <3 Mah friends. <3 mc chris.
</3 $180 French book. </3 homework. </3 no moneyz for school shit. </3 my road rage =[[[[
FUCK...
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hellomrworld:
you clean a toaster by turning it over .. I myself am quite the packrat ..
Birfday today. Twas alright. Mah baby's present of cookies and cream hersheys and then a surprise visit from family taking me out for Chinese food made it really good. Plus seeing mah dad and brother. =]
I think I'ma buy a new car sometime in the next couple weeks.
I think I'ma buy a new car sometime in the next couple weeks.
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ashan:
happy belated birthday, love.
pacmanman:
hey i went for chinese on my birthday last week too.
givememedicine:
Salt Lake City
Yeyyyyyyyyyyy. Salt Lake was awesome. Lots of snowboarding and humping. Two of my favorite things!
I'll post pictures soon.
My birthday is in 4 days.
Here's my wishlist.
eeeeee!
I'll post pictures soon.
My birthday is in 4 days.
Here's my wishlist.
eeeeee!
billytheseal:
"humping." that's so cute.
happy birthday for a couple of days.
happy birthday for a couple of days.
billytheseal:
you're welcome. enjoy your birthday.
(and that long without masterbation...that's inhuman...)
(and that long without masterbation...that's inhuman...)
UGSLSKDFNLSD:F Tired.
>:|
I got my new earings. The only shitty thing is that they are the same fucking size as the ones I already had in. =[ I didn't know that I was already wearing 8gs. Ah well.. I guess I'll just have to suck it up for now b/c I'm not gonna buy more. That was my xmas present to me. heh.
Mmmmm....
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>:|
I got my new earings.
The only shitty thing is that they are the same fucking size as the ones I already had in. =[ I didn't know that I was already wearing 8gs. Ah well.. I guess I'll just have to suck it up for now b/c I'm not gonna buy more. That was my xmas present to me. heh.
Mmmmm....
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antipunk:
Awwww thats so sweet my meth rotting teeth are hurting!
We will celebrate new years the way it was meant to be on a different day but with just as much passion!
We will celebrate new years the way it was meant to be on a different day but with just as much passion!
antipunk:
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm k
n smile dear!
<3