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I am sitting here this morning making another mix, one for running and another for driving 9 hours to Baltimore. I have become a migrating beast of Ohio! Every other weekend I seem to be driving to the coast which is amazingly freeing. If you want to move and shake and stretch your legs you can cover miles with a car or with your legs.When I am in Boston I will be carless and am rather relieved. I would much rather walk somewhere staring at the cracks in the sidewalk than drive by.

So many wonderful things are happening which can only be balanced out by sad goodbyes and endings. Yesterday was horrible and I was on an emotional roller coaster. It was halfjack's last day (well night) in Ohio and he was packing and I was trying to help. It depressed but I was looking forward to a good friend of mine Sherm ,who is one of the first people he met here and his bizzare-o twin, coming over to say goodbye. It became 9 o'clock and she hadn't called and another friend showed and announced that Sherm probably wouldn't be coming over. It made me so angry and hurt. I mean I personally wouldn't have cared but it was his last night here and she didn't even fucking call to say she canceled. I walked outside with the other girl that showed and started crying bc it was just the shittiest thing to do to someone I love. I am sick of people using their depression and other problems as excuses. I hate when people do this and I used to be one of them.("Well I just was feeling really anti-social and depressed for the sixth month in a row so I'm sorry I missed your kids birth. I mean jeez it's just my niece you'll have another right?"....over dramazation) It made me realize that our choices are the only thing that we can control and therefore we should take pride in the responsibility of making them.

While this upset me, I still had to go to the Creative Arts Center at my college to help said friend that showed move a painting. While I was there I noticed a bulliten that was posted announcing all the art majors that had gotten into grad school and my name was not staring back at me. I know it sounds petty to be upset by this but it sucked. I've worked for years trying to get to this point and to not have it recognized by my college really was a blow. At first I freaked and thought my profs had forgotten about me but then my friend pointed out they are in Italy and they love me and Nancy (our evil evil secretary) probably posted them. I hope she is right and I am going to put my faith in her bc she seems to be able to look at it objectively and I am a wreck.

In good news, James13 bought a drawing so tell him thanks and I hope he enjoys it. The next ten days I get to spend with me boy at Common Ground, a music/art camp. Originally, I was going to work for the rest of July but then I decided to take this week to spend with him. I have the rest of the summer to be apart. Le sigh. sad face. It was a good day spent with him yesterday day other than the stresses I described above. We went swimming and i pretty much laughed the whole time.

I was hoping to go to East Coast Camping but cannot due to having to work after Common ground. Now I need to finish packing and get on the road. Oh the drive...at least I have someone I can laugh and have fun with beside me. Have a great week and remember not to be flaky sons of bitches (i don't think any of you out there in the Sg world would be....right?)