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The past week has been rather, well ,crappy. Lot's of things are being thrown in my direction and I don't know what to catch and which things to dodge. One minute I'm feeling great, better than great, like I could master the whole fucking world, the next minute l wonder what I am doing with my life. Wow, Geraldo Rivera is on the news, I wondered what he was doing now. I keep telling myself it is all about how you decide to view the world around you. I just feel like I need to be doing more with my life. I also feel like I need to connect with new people around the area. All my friends are bar flies and I just can't handle it. My best friend lives an hour away and works two jobs and my other great friend is dating an asshole. I need to meet some cool girls around the area who don't want to get shit faced all the time.

All the news about the shooting is making me nauseated. It is extremely tragic and makes my head and heart hurt. I can only imagine what these students families, friends and classmates are going though. I also hate how they are painting loners as soon- to-be-psycho-killers. I mean I wasn't a loner but my paintings were quite fucked up in high school and every English friend of mine wrote stories with chain saws and child molesters, although much better than what that fucker wrote.

I need to make a list of things to do for the week. Oh, on the upside MICA sent a letter informing me that they accepted me into their post-bac program. It was good news and they would give me a little bit of money but I think I just need to get started on my Masters so I can start teaching. And be shot at.

on a lighter note......i want some ice cream



EDIT: feeling a million times better. I'm lucky to have a handful of people who i love that love me in return. I'm looking at one of them right now. Now I'm off to get some much needed rest to face tomorrow which is going to be extremely busy. Classes all day and then drawing. Good times!