girlb0t

I have that feeling of frustration. The one that makes you cry. Where you just want to say fuck the world. And the only person you want to talk to...you can't seem to make yourself call back. Because you know if you text them i feel like crap, or i just want to talk...when it comes to the point where your on the line with them you have nothing to say. And you can't explain what's really wrong with you. Its like you're waiting for someone to point it out...so you realize shit yeah all of this...has been bothering me. And you're right that's whats wrong with me. And at the same time i don't know if this is really how i am feeling, or if this is how these pills are making me feel...or they're just making me feel 10xs shittier about something that normally wouldn't bother me so much. Or if this is shit just built up over the years. Maybe sometimes you do need that good cry...i haven't gotten it. Not thee good one.

I'm starting to feel like how i felt in northridge...
Like wanting to shut everything out.
And that's not good. It really isn't.

Fuck it.