My family is insane. It gets worse everyday. I think i'm over being sad about it...no...i'm still sad 
I'd give anything for some peace in this house. But everyone is so sick of each other. I hate being home...this isn't a home this is hell. I know my sister can be a...jerk sometimes, or a lot...but she doesn't deserve to hear some of the things my mom tells her. I feel like it's my fault. My sister and my mom think that nothing bothers me....i just sit here quiet, on my laptop. I use to cry all the time, when they fought. I'd just sit there and cry. Now i just sit here staring at this screen...how empty. I wish i could move out. But i don't have the money or the means to just move out. I'd sleep in my car...but i need a shower & and a toilet. lol. or atleast a bush. haha.
*Note to self: if i ever have kids, i don't want them to ever feel like they were a mistake, or that I hate them. It sucks growing up thinking you were what was wrong with your parents marriage.
Work today till 10pm. I've wanted to quit lately. But i need the money. Oh well.
I promise myself one day...i'll be a real Journalist. I'll take layout editor for the LA Times. They get paid
180,000 a year. Yeah...fucking awesome right? Haha...that'll be the day.
I'd settle for the Daily Bulletin.
Alright i need to go to the bank.
On the brightside, i got my paycheck(money), i'm alive, I have a car, I have my friends and I have Ryan. That's all I need as of this moment.
I'd give anything for some peace in this house. But everyone is so sick of each other. I hate being home...this isn't a home this is hell. I know my sister can be a...jerk sometimes, or a lot...but she doesn't deserve to hear some of the things my mom tells her. I feel like it's my fault. My sister and my mom think that nothing bothers me....i just sit here quiet, on my laptop. I use to cry all the time, when they fought. I'd just sit there and cry. Now i just sit here staring at this screen...how empty. I wish i could move out. But i don't have the money or the means to just move out. I'd sleep in my car...but i need a shower & and a toilet. lol. or atleast a bush. haha.
*Note to self: if i ever have kids, i don't want them to ever feel like they were a mistake, or that I hate them. It sucks growing up thinking you were what was wrong with your parents marriage.
Work today till 10pm. I've wanted to quit lately. But i need the money. Oh well.
I promise myself one day...i'll be a real Journalist. I'll take layout editor for the LA Times. They get paid
180,000 a year. Yeah...fucking awesome right? Haha...that'll be the day.
I'd settle for the Daily Bulletin.
Alright i need to go to the bank.
On the brightside, i got my paycheck(money), i'm alive, I have a car, I have my friends and I have Ryan. That's all I need as of this moment.
guitarsnglasses:
Those are some good upsides at the end there. 