the horror. what am i doing? the horrible stuff that i am studying gives me nightmares. i thought that this wouls be an "interesting course of study". it's not. i read the most awful, inhuman acts and then am supposed to assume a scholarly perspective?
I can't do that. I don't know how to do that. Every word I read leaves me speechless inside. I sure as hell can't talk to anybody about my reasearch. They would think that I worship the devil. I'm a fucking Catholic, for God's sake.
What do you do when your life's pursuit becomes the antithesis of everything you aspire to be?
I can't do that. I don't know how to do that. Every word I read leaves me speechless inside. I sure as hell can't talk to anybody about my reasearch. They would think that I worship the devil. I'm a fucking Catholic, for God's sake.
What do you do when your life's pursuit becomes the antithesis of everything you aspire to be?
vanish:
Change your life pursuit so that it leads you where you aspire to go.