gion11

yeah. so maybe it's my studies, maybe it's reality, maybe I'm slowly going insane meditating on all this horrible nonsense.

Do you know what I see, each day and night? Evil. Fucking terrible, awful, sunny evil. So what do I do? Drink wine, read about the devil and pretend it is all fiction.

I went down to the tenderloin last night around 2:00am. I just kind of wandered. I saw the most degrading, horrid shit imaginable. I was offered the rock, fresh pussy, junk, you name it, it was available for cash money. I came home to my cat and my roommate and felt fucking dirty.

Dirty, people.

Now I'm not the world's most moral guy, in fact, I think it's safe to say that I'm a fucking scumbag, but I felt fucking dirty, fucking soiled.

How does this happen to people? We're all souls, created by God in his image. Is money so important? I made my way working at fucking KFC. What happens to these spirits? Is it just the drugs? I find that hard to believe, having taken every fucking non-intravenous drug known to medicine and kicked because I realized what was happening to me.

So I don't work at KFC anymore. So I'm a fucking jackass. All I know is that I was saddened by the horror of humanity.