I have returned, for now
It appears Mr Music is no longer around which makes me happy
but life still isn't great
I dont want to talk about nate even if he is the only thing on my mind all day
In other news, Ive decided it will be awhile before I shoot again for SG
me and miss cooknicole will be doing a shoot but just for fun
Ive been blown off and turned down by too many photographers, it hurts
do they really see no potential in me?
when the time is right It will happen, no clue when that time might be
School starts in 2 weeks and Im oddly very excited, it will give me something to do
Im worried with my luck that im going to get some great job offer that conflicts with school
I have no idea what I would do because I need a job as much as I need to finish school
Ive spent 6 months of this year being unemployed, it could be worse
Im running on the last of my savings and its scary to not know when it will run out sometimes
I know some people already asked me what about unemployment
I started getting unemployment end of last year, went through it and the federal extension already
my last job was stripping so its not a payroll job so I cant make a new unemployment claim
considering going back to dancing but I have no Idea where
they have to accept minors, accept I cant work on school days, I dont drive so it cant be far
I dont even have an apartment or many bills just phone and comcast bill
and everytime I go to the dentist, doctor, eye doctor, it adds up
and of course the money I spend taking Nate out or spoiling him
Its not like he asks me to but he is just as broke as me
and If I wasnt willing to buy things, we'd never go out
he is very reasonable and all about a budget and I am not, I like to enjoy life even when Im broke
I went to Idaho for 3 days, went on some wonderful rollercoasters and water rides
my mom and her boyfriend took me and paid for most of it and I had a blast
It took my mind off of money worries and school and job stuff, but I never stopped thinking about Nate
Thats all the update I have for now
It appears Mr Music is no longer around which makes me happy
but life still isn't great
I dont want to talk about nate even if he is the only thing on my mind all day
In other news, Ive decided it will be awhile before I shoot again for SG
me and miss cooknicole will be doing a shoot but just for fun
Ive been blown off and turned down by too many photographers, it hurts
do they really see no potential in me?
when the time is right It will happen, no clue when that time might be
School starts in 2 weeks and Im oddly very excited, it will give me something to do
Im worried with my luck that im going to get some great job offer that conflicts with school
I have no idea what I would do because I need a job as much as I need to finish school
Ive spent 6 months of this year being unemployed, it could be worse
Im running on the last of my savings and its scary to not know when it will run out sometimes
I know some people already asked me what about unemployment
I started getting unemployment end of last year, went through it and the federal extension already
my last job was stripping so its not a payroll job so I cant make a new unemployment claim
considering going back to dancing but I have no Idea where
they have to accept minors, accept I cant work on school days, I dont drive so it cant be far
I dont even have an apartment or many bills just phone and comcast bill
and everytime I go to the dentist, doctor, eye doctor, it adds up
and of course the money I spend taking Nate out or spoiling him
Its not like he asks me to but he is just as broke as me
and If I wasnt willing to buy things, we'd never go out
he is very reasonable and all about a budget and I am not, I like to enjoy life even when Im broke
I went to Idaho for 3 days, went on some wonderful rollercoasters and water rides
my mom and her boyfriend took me and paid for most of it and I had a blast
It took my mind off of money worries and school and job stuff, but I never stopped thinking about Nate
Thats all the update I have for now
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giggles:
i like ot enjoy life whille broke too, but it's hard to find free things to go do
merkaba72:
Virtual hugs to you beauitful lady! I hope your mind feels peace soon. And I'm TOTALY feeling your pain in many ways.... try and smile through it. Even if you're faking it! 