ginjer

I am trying to hard not to have a mental breakdown before work, I dont wanna go
Im already getting so sick of dancing its rediculous, i hate sitting in the dressing room all day
I hate beng a minor, I hate being a girl, I hate being bitchy and emotional
The nicer the weather the less people that come in, yes its nice to practice but it gets old
I just dont have much patience, but Im trying....
Im used to fast results, I want immediate rewards and thats just not the case right now
Ive been waiting for my apartment for a month now, I already gave them a partial deposit
but they keep playing games and putting it off and I need that apartment
I keep paying for a taxi to work because I dont have a stable ride
but the club is across from the apartment im getting so I wouldnt need a ride
It doesn't help that nate is mad at me again, I thought things were finally going good
but Ive been bitchy about my apartment and my best friend is leaving me for jobcore
and Ive probly been taking it out on him a little bit, so he has been nothing but rude

I feel like Im losing my sanity and my grip on reality after everything just got normal again....
I hate my life right now