gingersnaps_____

Well, I'm feeling super shitty...
There's a guy I've liked for a while, but because he had a GF, I didnt mention it to anyone, not even on here!! But I found out last night that he's became single!
So, before he left last night, after he hugged me, had a snowball fight with me (YES IT SNOWED HERE! We all ran out of the club n had a bit of a snowball fight, but there wasn't enuff really ), and after I kept catching him looking at me when we were dancing, my mate Fazz told him I liked him. His reply might as well have been "ARGH! Keep that fat, ugly cow away from me!". He used the "She's nice but..." line
So I spent the last hour, after he'd left, crying in the loo's...
Now I feel shit. I've never felt this low about myself. I even said NO to cheeseburger, chips and garlic mayo from the take-away! That's how fat I feel. I don't want to lose weight, I wouldn't like to lose weight... I NEED to lose weight I need to feel less ugly, I need to feel slimmer and I need to feel better about myself...
I'm going now, because I can't see the screen for tears...