gingerninja

Well, evening all.

How come everytime i put something onhere about being good and happy it always fucks up?? haha such is life eh.

Anyway,another girly night tonight, need it too.

ME & the ''bloke'' who split up decided last week we would try things again, how stupid was i??? i love him, but its just not right.we had a great day together went out for lunch etc and he and the whole day was amazing, now its gone shit.

asked him to stay over sometime soon and he told me he didnt want to as we are still trying ...well...how stupid am i for thinking that him staying over and spending some quality time together might make things better, very stupid it seems.

i ust cant be bothered with this anymore but imnot quite sure what to do now. He is having a hard time at the min but its something i cant help him with.

oh and we are down to seieng each other like twice a week, its all confusing and not going quite as expected. so...i got myself in a pickle again.....you should have all put bets on it.

the only thing is tho i feel like i have found myself again and i have been with my friewnds lots, this has unsetteled him and he even admitted it did, also ive not been so full on anymore and that has unsettled him too..to summarise. he likes to be in control and do what he wants and treat me how he wants and im not taking it anymore and he has shit himself.

so..................im at a wedding on friday and according to my stars im gonna meet the perfect person of my dreams. so...im going to the day and night do. cant miss that oppotunity can i. haha

far too much to go into detail, and far too boring to have you all reading it again. but hope everyone is well.

still got tickets for london and hotel is still booked so might still goo. got two tickets. maybe i should do a competition to find the perfet man to accompany me.

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