gingerninja

He came to get his stuff today, didnt end up taking it as not enough room in car.

Declared undying love for me and that he doesnt want to split up and all the usual shit.

Told him i didnt know, i love him but cant put myself or him through this agin.

Seeing him on wed to give him my decision. Decided tonight that i cant get back with him, its not fair on either of us as we were tearing each other apart.

My best mate came round and went mad at me and she was crying saying she cant watch him hurt me anymore, that has made me put things into perspective. I would rather loose him than all my friends, which i would if i got back with him and went crying to them when we split up again (which would happen)

Sometimes you have to use your head not your heart.

Just gotta arrange to meet him on wed, dnt want him to come to my house, he hugged me today and it was so nice and familiar, his smell and his skin, but he kissed me and i pulled away.

I have to be strong.

Thank you sooooo much everyone for all your kind words and support. Libra, ive stored your number in my phone, ill give you a txt soon.

So.......ill keep you all updated. Ill be keeping my eyes out for a heavily tattooed man to treat me right and spoil me when im all ready to get on the look out again. haha

Im hurting like fuck, but i have to get on with it, nearly there, just gotta see him on wed. then ill have done it, my heart doesnt want to but i know its for the best.