Its over...... 
He told me he cant take ''my shit'' anymore and that its over. He was meant to be staying tonight and cancelled. I wasnt happy and he kicked off and told me to fuck off.
So i left where we were and went home and set fire to some of his things (childish i know, but i was so angry, infact ive never felt that angry before)
Then i rang him an hour later and he was on his way home and told me the above and that it had been coming for ages and that he didnt want to see me again.
Ive cancelled the hotels for derby and london and have packed everything of his and cancelled his email accs and everything and all direct debits we had for him on my account.
I hurt so much, but to be fair, i think we should split anyway, i asked him if he still loved me and he kept avoiding it and sayin he just culdnt do it and that i always want things from him.
I have cried so much, i feel terrible, i do love him, but i know deep down that this is the right thing, i just didnt want it to end with him hating me, even tho relationships dnt finish on good notes.
I just keep crying and then being angry and i just dnt know what to do right now. My mam is taking me to give him his stuff tomorrow as she wont let me drive as she says im not in the right frame of mind.
So im hoping when i give him his stuff we can be civil and ill tell him i know its for the best and ask for my key back and the money he owes me and hopefully that will be that. im expecting him to be off with me and nasty, but if i tell him i havent gone to argue just to sort things then at least im not going to humiliate myself.
if he does say he has made a mistake then i am going to tell him i cant do it anymore, not after he told me it was over on the phone. i thought he had more respect for me than that. Ive got rid of every trace of him from my house.
On another note, i now have two weekend tickets for the london convention, its 80 for them both and they cover the 3 days. i havent got them yet but if anyone is interested in buying them off me, they can pay when i get them (would let you know) and then id send them asap.
Anyway im not sure what else to say. I just want to be held until i go to sleep.
I want to be loved and respected and im worried how my future will turn out
He told me he cant take ''my shit'' anymore and that its over. He was meant to be staying tonight and cancelled. I wasnt happy and he kicked off and told me to fuck off.
So i left where we were and went home and set fire to some of his things (childish i know, but i was so angry, infact ive never felt that angry before)
Then i rang him an hour later and he was on his way home and told me the above and that it had been coming for ages and that he didnt want to see me again.
Ive cancelled the hotels for derby and london and have packed everything of his and cancelled his email accs and everything and all direct debits we had for him on my account.
I hurt so much, but to be fair, i think we should split anyway, i asked him if he still loved me and he kept avoiding it and sayin he just culdnt do it and that i always want things from him.
I have cried so much, i feel terrible, i do love him, but i know deep down that this is the right thing, i just didnt want it to end with him hating me, even tho relationships dnt finish on good notes.
I just keep crying and then being angry and i just dnt know what to do right now. My mam is taking me to give him his stuff tomorrow as she wont let me drive as she says im not in the right frame of mind.
So im hoping when i give him his stuff we can be civil and ill tell him i know its for the best and ask for my key back and the money he owes me and hopefully that will be that. im expecting him to be off with me and nasty, but if i tell him i havent gone to argue just to sort things then at least im not going to humiliate myself.
if he does say he has made a mistake then i am going to tell him i cant do it anymore, not after he told me it was over on the phone. i thought he had more respect for me than that. Ive got rid of every trace of him from my house.
On another note, i now have two weekend tickets for the london convention, its 80 for them both and they cover the 3 days. i havent got them yet but if anyone is interested in buying them off me, they can pay when i get them (would let you know) and then id send them asap.
Anyway im not sure what else to say. I just want to be held until i go to sleep.
I want to be loved and respected and im worried how my future will turn out
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i'll message it to you
agree with both richardt and inkandiron
you will get through this in and come out shining.his loss to lose someone as ace as you,stay strong babe