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Sunday May 14, 2006

May 14, 2006
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I......................am my own worst enemy, my mind plays tricks on me, i think too much, i analyse too much, i go over and over things in my head, i put 2 & 2 together and come out with 2,5867,059761,4611 a fucking non exsistant (cant spell) fucking random crazy number.

Im sick of being me, and i wish i could just get away from everything and escape from it all.

I hate myself right now, i cant get my head out of my arse, i sit in on my own and torture myself about things when i know im only sat hurting myself thinking about it, how can it hurt anyone else when there is no-one here.

WHY?? who the fucks knows. i seriously think im going crazy, no wonder i annoy people and cant even make my own stupid fucking boyfriend happy.

I hate feelings and i hate insecurity and i hate everything that makes things that are so simple become so hard.

I want to scream so loudly and hit people and throw things and just let everything out. no wonder i push people away.

I make a decision and then find it so hard to forget about things and get on with it. I didnt used to be like this. Im so sad and fed up i dont know what to do for the best, i cant keep taking about it cause its just making things worse.

Maybe i need to end my relationship with him before i push him away too much and make myself a horrible insecure annoying crazy lady.

I HATE LOVE

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHH
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libra:
awwwww sweety
i dont know what to say............. take some time out....maybe some time off and decide what it is you want.

loads of love
im here if you need me
kiss kiss kiss
May 14, 2006
inkandiron:
Sorry to hear you're feeling so down Ninja.
I'm shit with advice so I'll spare you the bullshit and just say keep your chin up and be proud of who you are, happiness will find it's way to you, just don't go hunting it down too hard. Maybe you need to get rid of the things that are making you unhappy. Hope you feel better soon.
Take care. xx smile
May 14, 2006

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