sorry aint been updating again, kitchen is coming on fantastically, nearly finished, ill post pics soon.
Not too sure about whole boyf thing, he has been really cocky and winding me up all weekend, he has been out with lads 3 times this weekend on the drink but reckons he might be too skint to take me out next weekend for my birthday !!
one night, is all i ask for. its his mates birthday too and he said why dnt we all go out together, i just feel like i deserve one night to be treat nice and made to feel special, i dnt think he will come up with the goods though. he left my house today and there was no love you or anything, he just doesnt seem bothered and its making me more insecure.
why is it so hard for him to love me and want me the way i do him? i know everyone says thats just men, but is there not a chance i might just be worth it? worth getting out of bed a bit earlier on a morning so he can spend time with me, worth spending a bit of time away from his mates to be with me?
he is just driving me crazy, i think its because he thinks he has me wrapped round his littel finger, he probably does and its probs my fault for letting it get this way, but cant he see that i love him and just want us to get on???
perhaps its time to find someone who will love me for me and not make me even more insecure or unwanted? someone who wants to do things with me and go places with me, this time last year we were out together just the two of us all the time, now i feel like he is just getting further away. and im really suspicious of texts and phone calls he gets, it might not be anything but the way he is either full on or really distant is making me feel really bad.
also, my hands are really really dry from all the decorating, totally irrelevant but never mind.
he has even invited his mates to come away to a convention this year that we had planned to go to on our own, i get on with them and we have a laugh but its much nicer to be told before he askes them, ill just get pushed out now.
am i being childish and petty??
anyway, maybe best not to answer that, did i tell you all that im at 12mil now !!! just in time for my birthday xxx
Not too sure about whole boyf thing, he has been really cocky and winding me up all weekend, he has been out with lads 3 times this weekend on the drink but reckons he might be too skint to take me out next weekend for my birthday !!
one night, is all i ask for. its his mates birthday too and he said why dnt we all go out together, i just feel like i deserve one night to be treat nice and made to feel special, i dnt think he will come up with the goods though. he left my house today and there was no love you or anything, he just doesnt seem bothered and its making me more insecure.
why is it so hard for him to love me and want me the way i do him? i know everyone says thats just men, but is there not a chance i might just be worth it? worth getting out of bed a bit earlier on a morning so he can spend time with me, worth spending a bit of time away from his mates to be with me?
he is just driving me crazy, i think its because he thinks he has me wrapped round his littel finger, he probably does and its probs my fault for letting it get this way, but cant he see that i love him and just want us to get on???
perhaps its time to find someone who will love me for me and not make me even more insecure or unwanted? someone who wants to do things with me and go places with me, this time last year we were out together just the two of us all the time, now i feel like he is just getting further away. and im really suspicious of texts and phone calls he gets, it might not be anything but the way he is either full on or really distant is making me feel really bad.
also, my hands are really really dry from all the decorating, totally irrelevant but never mind.
he has even invited his mates to come away to a convention this year that we had planned to go to on our own, i get on with them and we have a laugh but its much nicer to be told before he askes them, ill just get pushed out now.
am i being childish and petty??
anyway, maybe best not to answer that, did i tell you all that im at 12mil now !!! just in time for my birthday xxx
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Listen to me FFS, sound like an old marriage counsellor dishin out wisdom. I'm the last fucker who should be advising on relatioships goin by my track record.
All I'm sayin is you deserve to be happy, thats all. Not too much to ask is it?
you dont sound happy!!!!!!
splitting up with red_tail was the hardest descion i ever had to make and it took me years to realise that it had to be done, that there wa no future for us. but the only way i did it was because i made the choice. people can tell you that hes no good or stick with it but only you can mak ethe right choice. and its so cool that every one here hasnt said either of those things.
we'll all be here for you, whatever you decide.
was it london he invited his mates too??? if so we dont need him..coz its gonna be a blast!!!!!
bug inkandiron to come, hes saying 'maybe' ( which is bloke speak for no) ive explained its my birthday but hes still saying 'maybe' help put pressure on him
love ya babes...you are amazing and amazing people should be happy.....so do what ever will make you happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!