gingerninja

4 days since i last updated !!!

ive been busy with house and a cold, also something strange has happened.

just happened about now really, ive hung onto my boyfriends every word for the last 1yr and a half, and im the one who says sorry and im the one who walks on egg shells incase i upset him and im the one who likes to spend time together.

however, something has just changed and today, infact i think from monday i just aint bothered, so what if he goes out with his mates and leaves me in? so what if he is in a bad mood?

he hun gon me yesterday after a little spat and i just didnt ring him back as i normally would and he rang me to apologise, and tonight, the first time ever i wasnt bothered about him leaving early to go out with his mates. ( i used to get annoyed when he told me he would see me then dropped me at last minute)

i dnt know whats happened, i do love him, i think ive just realised i dnt need him.

its weird, but as ive been backing off and plodding along on my own he seems to be the opposite, tonight, for example, he was all over me.

strange, but i kinda like being independant, i dnt want him to take me for granted and i think ive changed, or something inside me has.

im confused and have a headache as i cant work it out.