gingerninja

evening all, sorry but im in a shit mood today, started off good took a day off to spend with my bloke and get tattooed, didnt get tattooed fell out with my bloke twice !! once we had a petty argument in supermarket and next was when some bird (attractive bird unfortunately) who didnt know we were together proceeded to tell me she wouldnt mind a bit of him !!

he wasnt there and had gone out of earshot when it was said and i was just so shocked and angry i didnt say anything, then when she went i started asking him if he realised she was flirting with him and if she offered her number and he said no and he aint interested, i have had such a confidence knock and i feel like shit.

and i ended up taking it out on him even when it wasnt his fault, it was horrible i have never felt so jealous before and nw i am feeling insecure and really upset., i know its stupid but i now am gonna be wondering if she will flirt with himor ask him out when she sees him. i wouldnt be bothered if she wasnt nice but she has a lovely figure and nice clothes and stuff and i just feel really down and fat and im skint and cant afford nice clothes.

i just wanted to hit her, but i thought i was going to be sick. i know im being silly but its just really hit me, he said he understands it must have been horrible but he aint interested at all.

i just feel stupid for letting it get to me but i dnt want to become one of these jealous possesive g/friends, if he tells me he got offered a number it dnt bother me and her flirting didnt bother me its just what she said.

anyway im going now as i am in such a chew with myself i need a nice hot soak in bath to chill myself out.

and....ITS THE FUCKING TIME OF THE MONTH WHICH IS MAKING ME WORSE