Im a little blue at this very moment
for I have not lost the hope of love
but ache to find its true.
This scale has not found a balance.
Some offer false gold and others dry flaky muck.
Where is the one that can equal my weight?
A bit of gold and silver is what I am.
Ive felt love to and from, high...
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for I have not lost the hope of love
but ache to find its true.
This scale has not found a balance.
Some offer false gold and others dry flaky muck.
Where is the one that can equal my weight?
A bit of gold and silver is what I am.
Ive felt love to and from, high...
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I made it home. 
This trip was more than an experience.It was truely an adventure.
It was a bitter sweet travel for sure.
I'll have to write about it here and there over the next few weeks.
I hope all is healthy and happy for you all.
I'd like to mention: There are 2 sides to every story and I refuse to display
to the...
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This trip was more than an experience.It was truely an adventure.
It was a bitter sweet travel for sure.
I'll have to write about it here and there over the next few weeks.
I hope all is healthy and happy for you all.
I'd like to mention: There are 2 sides to every story and I refuse to display
to the...
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fiend1138:
What happened?
Bye bye for now everyone.
Pray/wish for my safe return pls.
Thx and you all have a great beginning of summer.
Pray/wish for my safe return pls.
Thx and you all have a great beginning of summer.
battlestarlet:
bye! be safe and have fun!
bh_photography:
Have a wonderful time sweetie, miss you, be safe.
Last Thursday was more than a good time. A friend and I went to Avalon in Hollywood to see Fisher from Fisherspooner and Dirty Vegas DJ. They were...amazing.I was "gone" but loving every moment. I was even interviewed for 30 sec before I cut them.It was bad but it was funny too.
I'm done w/ school for the summer...I passed Warm sunny days, cool ocean...
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I'm done w/ school for the summer...I passed
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battlestarlet:
i have no stories unfortunately. i will say that i just cleaned out my desk at work for good and that felt great. bye bye school from hell!
good luck with the tattoo thing. remember what i said a long time ago. make sure you see the whole thing in color before he/she ever starts. more than words can say, i regret leaving the color up to her. anyways, i'm sure you'll be smart about it. and i can't wait to see!
good luck with the tattoo thing. remember what i said a long time ago. make sure you see the whole thing in color before he/she ever starts. more than words can say, i regret leaving the color up to her. anyways, i'm sure you'll be smart about it. and i can't wait to see!
bh_photography:
I know your going to have an amazing time on your trip. I'm going to miss you something awful. One of these days I hope you will take a trip with me to Ireland.
I have the worlds BEST, MOST FANTASTIC, SEXEST, HOTTEST secret...and he's all mine.
Now, I've had it good - real nice - I've had it naughty.
But, no one has had it like I have this past month!!!
He can make me feel beautiful, delicate and in love while holding me tight in his arms.
And, he can make me feel sexy, hot and like...
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Now, I've had it good - real nice - I've had it naughty.
But, no one has had it like I have this past month!!!
He can make me feel beautiful, delicate and in love while holding me tight in his arms.
And, he can make me feel sexy, hot and like...
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battlestarlet:
what a hot entry and photo. if you don't mind me saying, he has beautiful eyes and arms.
bh_photography:
I'd make a video with you but I don't think I would want anyone seeing how hot and sexy you are.... I'd like to keep that to myself. And I definitely dont want anyone finding out how amazing you are in bed Love you baby.
Love you baby.Twisted bowels
Nauseated
Palpating heart
Lightheadednessis how I feel thinking about becoming 30 next month.
Regardless that I don't feel 60,
I am aware of the changes.
I've been fighting the deterioration over the past 5 years.
All the sex, drugs and rock & roll have crept upon me.
Despite all the warnings,
I have still woken up surprised to see
I look as though...
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Nauseated
Palpating heart
Lightheadednessis how I feel thinking about becoming 30 next month.
Regardless that I don't feel 60,
I am aware of the changes.
I've been fighting the deterioration over the past 5 years.
All the sex, drugs and rock & roll have crept upon me.
Despite all the warnings,
I have still woken up surprised to see
I look as though...
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contrary:
That one lousy feeling is evidence of life itself. 
fredantes:
30! after that it all goes downhill 
Three things I want to share
#1 I went to Joshua Tree for the first time to start Beltane off. Was great!
#2 I'm going to Portugal, Spain and Morocco to celebrate my big 30!!!!! First time finally traveling outside the USA. I'm so excited I might wet myself!
#3 Got my DMB tickets. Will be my bo's first show.
#1 I went to Joshua Tree for the first time to start Beltane off. Was great!
#2 I'm going to Portugal, Spain and Morocco to celebrate my big 30!!!!! First time finally traveling outside the USA. I'm so excited I might wet myself!
#3 Got my DMB tickets. Will be my bo's first show.
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fredantes:
good to see you are finally gonna be able to travel abroad - enjoy!
fredantes:
that's too bad because I had a spare ticket.
It's late and I can't sleep. 
Greatnow my lip is bleeding. The other night at work I neglected to read on the hot pocket wrapper "contents may be hot". I still probably wouldn't have believed it was hot enough to burn my lip to an instant blistering point! It looked like I had cheese stuck to my bottom lip but really was a nasty white...
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Greatnow my lip is bleeding. The other night at work I neglected to read on the hot pocket wrapper "contents may be hot". I still probably wouldn't have believed it was hot enough to burn my lip to an instant blistering point! It looked like I had cheese stuck to my bottom lip but really was a nasty white...
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bh_photography:
I did agree - but I didn't do a very good job at it, did I.
I was trying so hard to keep you, I stopped being the man you fell in love with.
I lost focus - I wanted to spend all my time with you because you make me so happy - but I should have focused more on myself and resolved all my problems sooner.
I know if I'm ever going to have a chance, I need to start over and prove that I really am the MAN you fell in love with and not just another childish boy.
Starting with getting my life back in order first, before I can ever think of starting a new life with you.
I was trying so hard to keep you, I stopped being the man you fell in love with.
I lost focus - I wanted to spend all my time with you because you make me so happy - but I should have focused more on myself and resolved all my problems sooner.
I know if I'm ever going to have a chance, I need to start over and prove that I really am the MAN you fell in love with and not just another childish boy.
Starting with getting my life back in order first, before I can ever think of starting a new life with you.
I'm over flowing with bliss. I can't stop thinking about my little vampire. We've spent only 4 occasions together and I get so goofy over him. I wish you could hear my excitement. Last night was wonderful and he expressed himself how he thought it was magical. God, vulnerability right now is oh so bitter sweet. I just want to be w/ him all the...
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cineman:
Wow, congrats! That's a good feeling, I know. Cheers!
bh_photography:
Glad to hear that your happy
A little bit of venting is what I need right now. Don't worry I top it off w/ sugar.
I was seeing/dating this guy for just about 6mos.Unfortunately, I recently broke it off. His words and his actions or lack of weren't level. For god's sake he still flirted and spent alone time w/ other girls. He even thought it was ok to spend a...
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I was seeing/dating this guy for just about 6mos.Unfortunately, I recently broke it off. His words and his actions or lack of weren't level. For god's sake he still flirted and spent alone time w/ other girls. He even thought it was ok to spend a...
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battlestarlet:
glad you dumped the loser. and this new guy sounds great. whether it works out or not, it certainly sounds wonderful in the now. have fun!!!
gingerkiss:
Thank you so much for the support.
I feel so sick in the stomach though right this moment.I just found out that his ex that was in a relationship just happens to have become single in the last few days before she comes out to visit him. I can't believe I was soooo blind. Why lie and hurt me. I'm a good person!
I feel so sick in the stomach though right this moment.I just found out that his ex that was in a relationship just happens to have become single in the last few days before she comes out to visit him. I can't believe I was soooo blind. Why lie and hurt me. I'm a good person!