im sorry guys but im about to get all emo. i know i shouldn't because there are prob. alot other people out there who are worse off then me. but this is my little corner where i can say what i want to and get those deamons in my head onto somthing written.so fuck it, here it goes.
i miss my dad, all i ever wanted was to make him proud, that is why i am still in school. i have no reason other wise to be here. im great at history, great at writing papers. but i have no desire to do those things. all i want is music.wether in a band, as a label owner, or just recording. this sucks that the only way i can make my family proud of me is to suffer through this and graduate from college. i hate it!
i hate, or more like scared that i am in love. her mom wants her out, she wants to get away from her mom. i realy want her to move in with me at ship but that would be soo asking to much of her. she would have to find a new job, and leave friends and acqentaices behind. and she would have to depend on me. that would be a scary thought for anyone. maybe i am just asking to much of her. and it realy is just me. and the things i don't understand.... i try to help her, but i don't know if i ever realy ease her pain. i feel usless. and her ex bf chase, i don't get that, and its my fault. he broke up with her, he wanted her to be differnt. so why be friends with him. and now he keeps texting her. and she will not let go. i don't understand why would you want to be friends with someone who broke up with you because of who you are? she broke up with me years ago because i couldn't let go of my old ex. years later will i have to return the favor? it would be differnt though. there will be no thoughts of a second chance... and its all prob. just me. but im tired of being laughed at by people because im supposed to and trying to be cool with her and him.
i hate the world in general. so much!
i would love to kill myself to get away from it all but im a glutten for punishment...
i miss my dad, all i ever wanted was to make him proud, that is why i am still in school. i have no reason other wise to be here. im great at history, great at writing papers. but i have no desire to do those things. all i want is music.wether in a band, as a label owner, or just recording. this sucks that the only way i can make my family proud of me is to suffer through this and graduate from college. i hate it!
i hate, or more like scared that i am in love. her mom wants her out, she wants to get away from her mom. i realy want her to move in with me at ship but that would be soo asking to much of her. she would have to find a new job, and leave friends and acqentaices behind. and she would have to depend on me. that would be a scary thought for anyone. maybe i am just asking to much of her. and it realy is just me. and the things i don't understand.... i try to help her, but i don't know if i ever realy ease her pain. i feel usless. and her ex bf chase, i don't get that, and its my fault. he broke up with her, he wanted her to be differnt. so why be friends with him. and now he keeps texting her. and she will not let go. i don't understand why would you want to be friends with someone who broke up with you because of who you are? she broke up with me years ago because i couldn't let go of my old ex. years later will i have to return the favor? it would be differnt though. there will be no thoughts of a second chance... and its all prob. just me. but im tired of being laughed at by people because im supposed to and trying to be cool with her and him.
i hate the world in general. so much!
i would love to kill myself to get away from it all but im a glutten for punishment...
and don't say you want to kill yourself. it's not woth it. trust me.
if you ever need to talk, i'm here for ya!!!
1. she should not...i repeat, NOT move in with you. Not under these circumstances. If she wants to get away from her mom you shouldnt let her escape into you...there's just way too much co-dependency involved in that situation.
2. you should not feel wrong for not wanting her to talk to her ex. but you also shouldnt expect her not to do it. again it seems as though you are the trade off...the escape...i'm not in the middle of it but it all sounds way to familiar...i believe that all demons and baggage must leave on its own in order to for a happy relationship to emerge...
Perfect Scenario:
She moves out of her mother's house into her OWN apartment. with her own bills, life, job, etc. she is no longer remotely concerned with the ex. yeah they still talk but there is no emotion involved on her part and he doesnt get to her anymore. more importantly, he doesnt get to YOU anymore.
You understand that just because you love someone doesnt mean you need to be their savior. You can be loving, supportive, and a good person without having all the answers.
To be independant and confident in yourself is, in my opinion, the best way to enter a committed relationship...on both sides.
now...tag you it, give me 20 things interesting about you.