gimix

Ambivalent as always...

Unfotunatly yesterday and today have struck some insidious cords with me and now have left me in a state of woe and discontent!

Concurently the only thing I can do is fester and think malevolently towards the person involved (my ex)

Oh i'm absolutly vexed in all ways imaginable and wish only heart ache and discontent atm.....

I think however my depression and sadness on that part is the worst of it... and tomorrow they are giving me guns... /sigh sometimes ya wonder...

For the first time in my life... i'm actually not happy... not perky...or feeling cocky... or funny...just...grey...

-=brandon

* totally feel shitty and getting smothered in affection and love from friends*