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I love and hate this journal. . . first I love it bc its just a new place to talk about a different side of me. I hate it bc of the format! Why must the other entry not be shown? I mean now when ppl look at my journal they dont see the other crazy thought I wrote about earlier that day. BLAH!

Anyways. . . .what to say hmmmmmmmm
I'm coming down with something. My throat is itchy . . . but atlas I told myself this wouldn't be a rant journal like my others are. Yea so let me see. . . ::sits in thought of what to say::
O yea I am going to try to be a model on SG here. Like the end of April I will apply. I want my wings done before I go on the site. Tho I still ponder if I really should do this. I mean what if ppl look at me different and see me as a slut? Like I really care. . . tho in a way I do hate when ppl asume. . .

My photos would be taken by me, and I want them to have a artistic value to them. So when ppl see them they will be turned on but also hopefully have respect in the work involved in the making of the layout. I already made up some ideas for shoots. I dont just think about what I'm wearing or not wearing its about lighting and shadows and composition when I think about doing these shoots. I guess that what separates me from most. I am always about the small details. . . I want the pictures to have a rollingstone/playboy/nylon appeal. Hopefully I pull it off well. Many have told me my little fantasies are quite mind blowing so I plan on entwining them in the little scenes. I'm hoping it will all come out good.

Now about the model. . . She can use some work no? ::takes a quick glance in the mirror:: I guess she will do if SG wants her. . . .