Its tribal, marks u, its a sweet taste to ppl of what u are or what they think u are. Just a thin layer of the true self. Ink? I think not. . . I was born with these . . .u just happen to notice today. heh. . . honestly!
I ran on the treadmill at gym for 2hrs. Finally stopped realizing I wasn't...
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don't say u love me and don't promise me such things. show me u love me. hold me, hug me and help me feel again. kiss me . . . but don't promise what others have promised but never lived up to. i have been in too much pain to take someone say that word again. hearing that word feels like the floor beneath me...
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nipponese:
Ok, today's journal aside: do you have any idea how horney it makes me to see your left breast? I am seriously dying here!
Anyway, everyone knows love only comes when you're not looking for it. You really should pick up a hobby or something. I recommend DJing. You seem like a Trip-Hop kind of girl. You'd be surprised what you can find on vinyl these days.
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Anyway, everyone knows love only comes when you're not looking for it. You really should pick up a hobby or something. I recommend DJing. You seem like a Trip-Hop kind of girl. You'd be surprised what you can find on vinyl these days.
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lilxsin:
Wowza's 
I see a boob. Heheh 
Aww Sweetie, I hope you feel better! And love does suck at times. Just think of it this way someone next in line might be 10 times better and will treat you like you deserve. If you need to talk you know where I am.
Big Hugs!
I see a boob. Heheh
Aww Sweetie, I hope you feel better! And love does suck at times. Just think of it this way someone next in line might be 10 times better and will treat you like you deserve. If you need to talk you know where I am.
Big Hugs!
Dear Pessoa,
I detest the word love. Im bothered how people just throw around that word. They just love everyone. And well I dont define love in a way that you can just throw it around like that. I get very irritated when I get an IM from an ex saying people love you. I just want to tell her to fuck off. She lies...
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I detest the word love. Im bothered how people just throw around that word. They just love everyone. And well I dont define love in a way that you can just throw it around like that. I get very irritated when I get an IM from an ex saying people love you. I just want to tell her to fuck off. She lies...
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kinto:
God that was hard to get out of bed this morning... 
A mile under 5 minutes ? Dream on baby. Too funny because am just back from a half hour run. True that you feel so chilled out after that. Gonna hit the shower now and feel so good this evening...
Plant a kiss on your bunny flatmate for me
K
A mile under 5 minutes ? Dream on baby. Too funny because am just back from a half hour run. True that you feel so chilled out after that. Gonna hit the shower now and feel so good this evening...
Plant a kiss on your bunny flatmate for me
K
scattershot:
hmmm your like me, searching for life's re-set button
::meows:: I want my romeo. . . 
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rickroyal:
Now that makes me smile.
nordicskin:
I love your screen name, shoot i really love your pic 
Would you settle for a Romette
Would you settle for a Romette
Dear Romeo,
The truth is. . . .
Wishful thinking of the impossible hurts when you get hit with the truth. . . I find its impossible on my part to be with anyone. Especial someone who is of good nature.
Broken dreams and promises of the future of us being together lost to lies.
I wish I could forget or at least not know...
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The truth is. . . .
Wishful thinking of the impossible hurts when you get hit with the truth. . . I find its impossible on my part to be with anyone. Especial someone who is of good nature.
Broken dreams and promises of the future of us being together lost to lies.
I wish I could forget or at least not know...
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nipponese:
I once thought I had this awesome relationship with a girl. I would call her everyday and send her naked pictures of myself. At first she wouldn't give me her address, but I managed to buy it for $300 off this skinny Chinese kid in the dorms. Her name was Natalie Portman. Then I got letter from her lawyer, after which I Ceased and Desisted.
kinto:
You can never ever really know anybody else apart from your own self (which is already very hard). There is no way into somebody else's mind. Sometimes you might get close for a little while, most of the time you're million miles away, even in the closest relationship. Love is not about knowing everything about the other one. It's about accepting them with all their flaws.
Once you accept this, your life gets easier
K
Once you accept this, your life gets easier
K
Dear Bobby Fisher,
All I want is a kiss. I want to kiss someone and become lost. Forget for a second where I am and what has happen. I want everything to stop and just that moment be in play. I want our bodies to melt and form and fit just right. I want to feel safe and that everything will be alright. All I...
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All I want is a kiss. I want to kiss someone and become lost. Forget for a second where I am and what has happen. I want everything to stop and just that moment be in play. I want our bodies to melt and form and fit just right. I want to feel safe and that everything will be alright. All I...
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thirty:
Thick skin's per requiem for survival...too bad it isn't easier to come by.
rickroyal:
A professor of mine used to show a bunch of prose poems that were from a workshop he did once. The prose poems were letters to the poet John Berryman, who committed suicide by throwing himself off of a bridge. Amazing prose poems. This reminded me of them.
beware this might make u sick . . . just dont read it if u like to imagine I'm so much happier and better then this. . .
Well I guess I will be a virgin a few more years. . .I just realize I have lost every bit of interest in sex (and everything else for that matter). I look at ppl and think...
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Well I guess I will be a virgin a few more years. . .I just realize I have lost every bit of interest in sex (and everything else for that matter). I look at ppl and think...
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thirty:
You're welcome for the hat. As for the reward, I live in Arizona which isn't exactly close to NY. However, if I'm ever in the tri-state area I'm going to be expecting a wild, marathon-style love making session.
P.S. I (and probably a lot of other people) can identify with your feelings about your life. I even have some wicked self inflicted scars. All I can say is, there's probably nothing a complete stranger can say to make you feel any better but if it helps, you're not alone.
P.S. I (and probably a lot of other people) can identify with your feelings about your life. I even have some wicked self inflicted scars. All I can say is, there's probably nothing a complete stranger can say to make you feel any better but if it helps, you're not alone.
scattershot:
You know we are very much alike .. Sorry first let me introduce myself. My name is Tim.. Im from the Toronto area. I feel the same way about most of the people I hang out with.. very few really true friends. I don't feel normal like you said. We are both relatively good looking people but find it hard to find people to really get to know us and love us. Its good that you wait though. My first (and only time) was with someone who was just looking for a one night stand after prom ... I don't regret it but I wish that something better could have come a long. And I too have thought of death because of lonliness. I have a hug to give you and hope that you have one to give me back. But I envy you for having the guts to come out about it in a public forum... although I realatively just did I could not go into as much detail as you just did.
I don't know if that made much sense but I tried
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I don't know if that made much sense but I tried
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hmmmmmm I must say breaking things is just not appropriate when it comes to managing anger. 
When I'm pissed I just find another way in fixing the pain I have inside. 
Like maybe inflicting pain on myself(not good i know) or just drawing. Or maybe ranting in a journal.
But anyway. . . kudos for the one who finds me a bunny ear beanie. Ya...
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When I'm pissed I just find another way in fixing the pain I have inside. Like maybe inflicting pain on myself(not good i know) or just drawing. Or maybe ranting in a journal.
But anyway. . . kudos for the one who finds me a bunny ear beanie. Ya...
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tomosnemesis:
ps: cute new pic
dhill1:
yup, its the one with the cool glasses. I tried to IM you and your not now. Where or where did you go
I dont want to cry I want to scream and yell and break things. I want to just push things off the tables and kicking things around and scream and yell profanity and I just want to tear my hair from the roots and pull myself inside out. But I know none of that will fix things so I just sit quietly and try to...
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novy:
I know what to do.
Get "Bitches Brew," by Miles Davis. Get a small glass, fill it with ice cubes, and pour it about halfway full with liquor. Keep an open mind, and everything else will sort of fade away.
Get "Bitches Brew," by Miles Davis. Get a small glass, fill it with ice cubes, and pour it about halfway full with liquor. Keep an open mind, and everything else will sort of fade away.
somekindofinsane:
i like breaking things...relieves stress..
Wings?
Why wing?
Mom says wings will mark me and god forbids another had wings too. And they were seen at a crime seen. I was pointed out to have wings so I must have been that person. They mark me and ppl look at me different because I have wings? But, even when I didnt have wings ppl always stared like I was some...
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Why wing?
Mom says wings will mark me and god forbids another had wings too. And they were seen at a crime seen. I was pointed out to have wings so I must have been that person. They mark me and ppl look at me different because I have wings? But, even when I didnt have wings ppl always stared like I was some...
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nipponese:
Thanks!
rickroyal:
Interesting dream. I wonder what it means when a house collapses in a dream.
OMG who did that?! is that a nipple? ::gasps:: HOW ABSURD!
Anyway . . .
Smoking seems like a social event these days. No matter what your around it. People puff away in little crowds outside of the college building and even at work. I seem not to be able to talk to anyone without them lighting up. I paretically hate smoke. It smells horrible....
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Anyway . . .
Smoking seems like a social event these days. No matter what your around it. People puff away in little crowds outside of the college building and even at work. I seem not to be able to talk to anyone without them lighting up. I paretically hate smoke. It smells horrible....
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nipponese:
Off topic....
I think Luxe is hot too. Lets be friends. Hehe.
Oh, and nice nipple (back on topic).
I think Luxe is hot too. Lets be friends. Hehe.
Oh, and nice nipple (back on topic).
kinto:
I don't think a nipple ring looks nice on girls (you asked). A small metal bar (no idea how you call that) can be nice though
Funny thing about smoking is I used to be sick (throat irritation problems, BIG time) everytime I went to a bar/club/whatever because of the smoke. To such an extent that my doctor said then that the only way to sort the problem would actually be to smoke from time to time myself... Kill to cure I hear you say...
Anyway, I did so and it DID work... I only smoke when I drink so I guess it's somewhat contained. Europe is very much a smokers place. I would totally freak out if I couldn't smoke in bars/restaurants. And then I'd get used to it
K
Funny thing about smoking is I used to be sick (throat irritation problems, BIG time) everytime I went to a bar/club/whatever because of the smoke. To such an extent that my doctor said then that the only way to sort the problem would actually be to smoke from time to time myself... Kill to cure I hear you say...
Anyway, I did so and it DID work... I only smoke when I drink so I guess it's somewhat contained. Europe is very much a smokers place. I would totally freak out if I couldn't smoke in bars/restaurants. And then I'd get used to it
K
MEOW! I change my pic and yes bunnies do meow. . . .
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rickroyal:
A missed a pic change? Now I am sad faced.
somekindofinsane:
pwetty pwease?? *bashful puppy dog eyes*
don't want to get beat by my girl!
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