as some of you know, i was going to move to boston in the fall.
not for any real reason.
just to get out of california, force myself into the real world and out of my comfort zone. i was going to move with a friend, who is going to emerson out there.
well, she emailed me. telling me that she was going to live with someone else.
i am too shy to just move to boston without a partner in crime. i am too shy to move anywhere and do that. and it's scary enough that i didn't even have a job there or anything.
i hate relying on people, but she was a rock.
i thought she was anyway.
that was stupid. maybe the whole plan was stupid.
it's not the end of the world.
i am just going to apply for jobs everywhere: sf, la, ny, boston, chicago, london, etc. and the best job i can get... well i will move there.
basing it on the job is a better idea anyway.
but it sucks.
on top of having my little life plan turned upside down, i realized that someone who i thought loved me, doesn't even respect me.
not for any real reason.
just to get out of california, force myself into the real world and out of my comfort zone. i was going to move with a friend, who is going to emerson out there.
well, she emailed me. telling me that she was going to live with someone else.
i am too shy to just move to boston without a partner in crime. i am too shy to move anywhere and do that. and it's scary enough that i didn't even have a job there or anything.
i hate relying on people, but she was a rock.
i thought she was anyway.
that was stupid. maybe the whole plan was stupid.
it's not the end of the world.
i am just going to apply for jobs everywhere: sf, la, ny, boston, chicago, london, etc. and the best job i can get... well i will move there.
basing it on the job is a better idea anyway.
but it sucks.
on top of having my little life plan turned upside down, i realized that someone who i thought loved me, doesn't even respect me.
Boston's probably my favorite US city. Except for the winters.
I think I will be doing the same thing when i graduate. well actually no, i wish i could but i would be just as scared - mostly about finances though. I don't mind being alone anymore, i just spent the last two years of my life being "alone" - more alone than i've ever felt before, anyway.