ghostina

this had definately been a very trying weekend. *sigh* i had to go up to my parents house today...it wasn't so bad, it's just always a little annoying being around your mom and dad all day long. i did go swimming, however! friday night totally sucked though! i went to this burlesque show at the chamber in atlanta with colette...i was really looking forward to actually doing something with JUST colette and i for once...boys get incredibly annoying, so it was going to be a nice change. anyway though...we got mixed up with some fucker and he gave us bad drugs or something...it totally fucked us both up, so we spent the entire night passed out in my car. not fun. *SIGH* oh well...
saturday was cool though...only because i got really drunk(without puking, thank you)...i needed something to take my mind off all the shit i'm going through.

i don't know...lately i just feel so incredibly alone in the world. i feel like i have one person that i can really talk to, and that maybe understands me a little...it just doesn't feel quite right. i know she has a million things going on her life...and i just tend to complicate her life even more. it makes me really sad that she doesn't seem to want to open up to me whatsoever. sometimes i feel like she would be much better off if i just disappeared off the face of the earth. not dying...just leaving town. i know thats the way it'll end up anyway... me alone.

i'm sorry i'm being so depressing...i just hate feeling like this.