ghettoblaster

I don't know what my problem is today. I'm practically crawling out of my own skin. I can't seem to get content. I think I'm uneasy and anxious to start my life over. I'm so unmotivated knowing what a struggle its going to be soon. I really do hate my job, it leaves me so tired and drained. I never realized how much I needed Brenda, what refuge she was for me. Oh well.
I just want to get this next chapter started and to close the one I'm in. There are so many loose ends I need to tie up still. I hope Brenda can help me through some of this. I have to start packing, but its hard to bring myself to it. The weather is not helping.
My life keeps getting smaller everytime I have to start over.
This is going to be the last time I hope.



Ha, it seems I misspelled my own screen name on the contact page for AIM, it is correct now!


This is how I feel.

On another day c'mon c'mon
With these ropes tied tight can we do no wrong
Now we grieve cause now is gone
Things were good when we were young

With my teeth locked down I can see the blood
Of a thousand men who have come and gone
Now we grieve cause now is gone
Things were good when we were young

Is it safe to say? (c'mon c'mon)
Was it right to leave? (c'mon c'mon)
Will I ever learn? (c'mon c'mon)
(c'mon c'mon c'mon c'mon)

As I make my way c'mon c'mon
Through these bitter nights that seem too long
Now we grieve cause now is gone
Things were good when we were young

With my teeth locked down I can see the blood
Of a thousand men who have come and gone
Now we grieve cause now is gone
Things were good when we were young

Is it safe to say? (c'mon c'mon)
Was it right to leave? (c'mon c'mon)
Will I never learn? (c'mon c'mon)
(c'mon c'mon c'mon c'mon)

Is it safe to say? (c'mon c'mon)
Was it right to leave? (c'mon c'mon)
Will I never learn? (c'mon c'mon)
(c'mon c'mon c'mon c'mon)

And know this day these deepened wounds don't heal so fast
Can't hear me croon of a million lies that speak no truth
Of a time gone by that now is through