getfighted

Things seem to just keep getting worse.
I found out this morning that my cousin Emily passed away last night.
I wasnt very close with her, shes much older than I am, but its still tough to hear.
I had another fight with my cousin, I really need to get out of here.
My financial situation sucks, my love life is non-existent, I just feel low.
It seems like relationships are crumbling around me left and right.
And something tonight just really rubbed me the wrong way and Im not sure why...

I feel like Im kind of falling into the backdrop of other peoples lives. People that I care about a lot. It worries me. Im really scared of losing them. One person in particular.
I know things will start looking up as soon as all of this car accident business is taken care of, it just really seems like when it rains, it pours.
I've been so drained of energy lately, I dont even want to do anything. I have no motivation to make my home life any better.. I feel like I've tried everything and the only thing left to do is get out.
I'm tired all the time but I cant sleep, I dont eat.. I just make it through..

My moms birthday is Friday, and we'll most likely be at a funeral.
Not really the way I envisioned it.