getfighted

I dont know what my problem is, but everything and everyone seem to be annoying me more than usual lately.
I dont know if it's because of the added stress at home with my cousin, or what it is, but lately I've been way more content than usual just being at home alone.
I really enjoyed having the whole week with nobody else around.
Even having Christmas alone didn't bother me as much as I thought it would.
I guess I've just been pushing myself away more and more because I don't want to deal with the pure douchebaggery of my cousin.
His thoughts and ways are seeming to seep into the brains of other family members now and I really feel like soon enough I'm going to flip my lid worse than before.
I only have 5 more months of biting my tongue and then I'm fucking out of here forever.
If the living arrangements for the Jersey house fall through, then I'm going back to Maryland. I really don't want to, but anything is better than here.