Sometimes, I really am ashamed at myself for being selfish and ungrateful in ways I never really noticed.
My great aunt, whom most of my family is very close with, is basically on her death bead. Constantly in and out of the hospital for surgeries, incoherent from all her medication, and hardly eating.
Here I am getting angry that I have to stay late watching my little cousin because his dad is visiting her in the hospital, getting frustrated that I might be a few minutes late for class when Im not even thinking about the big picture.
My aunt is dieing.
Thats the bottom line.
I should be happy, that unlike her, I get to spend time outside of the same 4 walls. And that I have the opportunity to stand on my own 2 feet, and breathe by the natural force of my own lungs without machinery aiding me. Happy that I get to see my family on a daily basis, and get to have conversations with whoever I choose.
Instead of whining about how cold it's getting, I should embrace that I get to feel fresh air on my skin.
It's so easy to feel sorry for yourself, and look at the negative things life tosses your way.
Lately I havnt been feeling much like my usual, optimistic, happy go lucky self and I need to shake that habit right now.
Im ashamed of myself, absolutely ashamed.
My great aunt, whom most of my family is very close with, is basically on her death bead. Constantly in and out of the hospital for surgeries, incoherent from all her medication, and hardly eating.
Here I am getting angry that I have to stay late watching my little cousin because his dad is visiting her in the hospital, getting frustrated that I might be a few minutes late for class when Im not even thinking about the big picture.
My aunt is dieing.
Thats the bottom line.
I should be happy, that unlike her, I get to spend time outside of the same 4 walls. And that I have the opportunity to stand on my own 2 feet, and breathe by the natural force of my own lungs without machinery aiding me. Happy that I get to see my family on a daily basis, and get to have conversations with whoever I choose.
Instead of whining about how cold it's getting, I should embrace that I get to feel fresh air on my skin.
It's so easy to feel sorry for yourself, and look at the negative things life tosses your way.
Lately I havnt been feeling much like my usual, optimistic, happy go lucky self and I need to shake that habit right now.
Im ashamed of myself, absolutely ashamed.
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We all do it, its just a matter of acknowledging we shouldnt, and you've just done that =].
I really hope things work out for the best, and that you get back to your normal self.