gesomina

I guess it is only appropriate that my Love life should be as dramatic as possible. I am seriously the biggest liar when it comes to boys. And this totally goes against my morals and Catholic values. I dont lie cheat or steal. But when it comes to relationships I cant be faithful.

So it all begins with Franky,


I loved him I really did. We spent 3 years together and it was Fucking miserable but I sucked it up and stuck it out. He is an Old fashioned Arab. And me well I go aginst every thing he thinks a women should be. But none the less we were head over heels in Love. So what did I do I would pretend to be a Girl he would like. All the mean while hiding who I really am. Why did I do this? I have no Idea...Sometimes I forget what is real and what I have made up. Yet I am freakishly Aware. So of course this has come to an End. Or so I think. We still try to talk cause we miss each other but always end up fighting. So I am really trying to let go.

Now moving on here is Mendel



I met Mendel when I was making my Film. We met at A Jewish Bookstore. He is an Orthodox Jew and really helped me with the FIlm. Which is about an Orthodox Jewish Boy who loves an American girl and they cannot be together. Then we basically lived out my Movie!!! So still with Frank and now with Mendel. Who I love to Death but can never be with Cause he is Jewish and I am Catholic. It was a releif cause I would have Fun with Mendel and fight with Frank. This created some kind of Fucked up Balance.

So moving on to Stevie.



I found Stevie in search of someone more like myself. He is a nice Italian, Catholic, Soccer palyer. So I have left Frank and am trying to take Stevie seriously. Since we met I have only slept with him. I have to admit I still see Mendel but refuse to sleep with him. Which is beginning to get hard. Ecspecially since Stevie hasnt exactly made an effort to make me cum. So now I am back to masterbating to Porn!!! Thank God for Jenna Jameson!!!