It is not funny to think, to see how things can change so fast.
I was feeling at my best a few hours ago, now I'm just turning mad crazy, because of so many things. It fucks me up to see how that work on myself I've done with so many specialized people to help me think a better way, and to now just crave, again, the silent blade...
You cannot have so much fun, and hurting so much feelings at the same time. I stupidly thought it was something possible, now I know I'm wrong.
It's my turn to suffer now.
I can't help it, I'm totally in need of this right now.
*there was a stupid picture of a stupid blade here*
Please someone, tell me I'm wrong, tell me everything will turn back to how it was a few hours ago. Tell me I will survive.
I was feeling at my best a few hours ago, now I'm just turning mad crazy, because of so many things. It fucks me up to see how that work on myself I've done with so many specialized people to help me think a better way, and to now just crave, again, the silent blade...
You cannot have so much fun, and hurting so much feelings at the same time. I stupidly thought it was something possible, now I know I'm wrong.
It's my turn to suffer now.
I can't help it, I'm totally in need of this right now.
*there was a stupid picture of a stupid blade here*
Please someone, tell me I'm wrong, tell me everything will turn back to how it was a few hours ago. Tell me I will survive.
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what's going on overthere? I'm getting a little worried here!!
First of all, get that blade out of your mind, no need to go that far.
You don't need that at all, believe me!
What you need is a clear head and some positive thinking right now.
Maybe some fresh air or a nice cup of hot tea or milk (with honey!).
I can't say 100% sure it all will turn back to how it was a hours ago,
but it's atleast a nice goal to think of, go go go go....!! You can do it!
And yes, you will survive, sweetheart, even if it means I have
to come over and safe you personally, or fly you over to take care
of you here in Amsterdam (you probably love it here! Who doesn't....).
Who is 'Vincent'? Can he/she/it help?
Well, let me know what's up, please!! I'm not in the best situation
myself these days but there's always something to fight for, starting
with yourself....and having great friends around helps too, ofcourse!
Oo, and you still have to do a shoot with my lovely Keena dear!
Take care....BIG warm hug'n'kiss....
r*
P.S.: By the way, It's my turn to suffer now.
Ts je te comprends ...j passe par des priode trs difficiles aussi.
Accroche toi a ce qui te fais vibrer ....a ceux que tu aimes.
T'es une bonne personne....ca va aller.