gerta

i still don't have access at my apt. for that i am beyond frustration. fuck sbcyahoo and the horse they rode in on! new computer, checked all the connections and still, nothing.

oh fucking well. if that's all i can come up with to complain about, then i'm doing pretty fucking well.

i can't express in words how excited i am to hang. my first real suspention. four point suicide. i went out and bought a gas mask to wear. might be dorky, but i think i would really get a kick out of the creepyness of the whole thing and i doubt i'm the only one. so any one in the area needs to come and support us. the info is posted so don't be lazy, if you want to see this just be there. i hope to have a real camera so if you can't make it, just keep bugging me to get the pictures up and i will.

i got really discusted with the 'sex without feelings' game so i am insanely horny now and can't wait to fall in love again. (just in case you can't sense the sarcasm, it's there.) i'm not even going to get attached to my cat. people suck. they either hurt you or they die. so i will keep the friends i have and carefully screen anyone or anythying that comes into my life. someone once suggested to me that i 'get to know her before i fall in love with her', i don't know about all that because i still totally believe in the whole love at first sight thing, but as far as others go i'm not letting them in until i have reason. that whole 'i'll trust you until i have reason not to' thing is going straight out the window.

so, until next time sg land, keep an eye on the door and sleep with the angels.

k, bye.