yea! i now have internet access at my place. this is good because now i can submit theese things as my feelings change, instead of when i can get online.
i have come to terms with the premature death of my friend victor. he died in february and until lats week i was mad at him. now i am able to appreciate our relationship and thank him for all of the advice he gave me. i can use the confidence he intillled in me. i will emulate the behaviors in him that were so admirable- helping others, listening to other's bull shit, giving sound advice only in areas in which i am exprierienced.
it's pretty crazy though how people i don't even know can see alex for what she is. not one person has told me,"oh she sounds wondreful. how can you bear to be without her?"
i guess love is love and way too strong of an emotion to simply turn off. not that i want to turn it off, i just want to stop it from ruling my every thought.
i have come to terms with the premature death of my friend victor. he died in february and until lats week i was mad at him. now i am able to appreciate our relationship and thank him for all of the advice he gave me. i can use the confidence he intillled in me. i will emulate the behaviors in him that were so admirable- helping others, listening to other's bull shit, giving sound advice only in areas in which i am exprierienced.
it's pretty crazy though how people i don't even know can see alex for what she is. not one person has told me,"oh she sounds wondreful. how can you bear to be without her?"
i guess love is love and way too strong of an emotion to simply turn off. not that i want to turn it off, i just want to stop it from ruling my every thought.