gerta

well i've managed to fuck up this one all on my own.

she had to kill her dog, her best fucking friend.

i couldn't keep it together for twenty four hours.

lost my temper, yelled.

i don't want to know anybody anymore.

although two of my new friends made it pretty easy for me to not take a handfull of pills. thanks guys.

it's raining so i'm not working, get to sit here alone and think about what a dick i am.

i'm a dick, i'm a dick, dick i am, yes me dick, dick anyone?

the sadest thing is i really don't know if i care.

i feel bad that i hurt her feelings, that i know. but as to weather or not i want to keep 'working' on this relationship...

i feel like we are both better off not together.

or am i just running?

i am eternally tired of getting angry. it takes to much energy and i say things without thinking.

map 'gap' must increase.

k, bye.